Mystery baby

This is amazing I woke up before the kids and got ready and they are still sleeping, 8:30 is sleeping in for them so this is a kiss from the Lord! So I thought I'd write a little. Was up last night not able to sleep due to contractions, so of course I started getting all excited because with the past births I didn't have contractions until the day of going into labor. So I was up for about 3 hours then they were done, bummer! This baby sure is a mystery to me. They've given us 3 due dates because they were unsure since I was still nursing Trinity when I found out I was pregnant. So the first two have passed and the 3rd due date is May 15th which I thought it would be easy to tell myself that's when the baby is coming but deep down inside I was hoping it to be earlier. I know that date is only 19 days away but I'm feeling ready! For me it is just hard cause I like to plan ahead and make sure everything is ready, got enough food for the kids while we are in the hospital, laundry is done, house is clean etc. So not knowing is really making me trust in the Lord and lean on Him. Ok I had lots more to say but Trinity is crying now. I'm getting excited and we will keep you posted when this mystery baby comes! Bless you all!
~Hilary

He loves the sound of my voice!

I've been desiring more of the Lord these days. Realizing I can't do anything with out Him. I was telling Samuel the other day that he can talk to the Lord whenever he wants to. Then later I thought wow why don't I do that anymore. Why don't I just talk to the Lord whenever I want to. He loves the sound of my voice, so why don't I just let Him hear my voice. I was feeling sad tonight as Tom was leaving for a meeting and I was feeling kind of alone. He said well what are you going to do while I'm gone, I said I don't know there's not much I can do. He said why don't you write the word in your journal. So that's what I've been doing and I can feel my heart coming alive again. Finally I talked with the Lord and journaled which I haven't done in a long time. I just have been so busy with my day in and day out stuff, with changing diapers, cleaning, cooking, preparing for this baby to come etc. In all of that my heart has been hurting because I haven't been communing with Him or even coming to Him with my hurt or day to day needs. So all that to say I feel a little lighter tonight since I finally brought my burdens to the Lord instead of trying to keep it all together in my own strength. The Lord is my strength, He loves me, He's the best listener and He loves the sound of my voice! Thank you Lord for healing my heart tonight just by listening, you are so good and kind to me! I pray you all will draw near to the Lord tonight and feel His love towards you!
~ Hilary

Sorry ya'll haven't been in the mood to write these days. So here goes... not much new here just getting ready for #3 to come. Painted a dresser for the new baby, moved the bassinett into our room, went through all the newborn clothes, packed my bag for the hospital. Getting excited that's for sure! We are switching over to cloth diapers and they should be shipped to us this week. We figure we will have 3 in diapers and more down the road so might as well switch now and save money. We were blessed with almost all the money to get started on cloth diapers so I'm very thankful for that! Have about a month to go now, might be sooner though because I am HUGE! Praying for more grace and strength on my body and on my heart! Didn't realize it would be this hard running after 2 plus dealing with their emotions and mine at the same time. I have a new respect for Mom's that's for sure. Just asking for the Lord to show me more of Him each day because that is the only way I can make it through. Tom is doing good and I'm amazed how gracious he has been to me with all my moodiness and drama these days. I am blessed among women! Here's some pics for ya from Easter. We had a family breakfast, then Tom did his normal 12-6 shift so I brought the kids to the prayer room after nap time. After they couldn't keep quiet in the prayer room we went to the Mom's room so they could play, here's some pics of that. Be blessed this week! Love Hilary

Sweet small whispers

The Lord is speaking to me in sweet small whispers today, I love it when He does this. One thing was I turned on the Prayer room in Kansas City and they were singing this "He's brought me to the wilderness where I will learn to sing, He lets me know my barrenness so I will learn to lean... He's so kind to me! I'm so convinced that you are good God!" I heard this and tears came a flooding down. It is so good sometimes to actually feel ya know, I usually stuff it all down but these days it is all coming to the surface which is so good and it is the only way that the Lord will bring healing in our hearts. So hearing this for me was just confirmation that I am in the right place, even though I feel like this is so hard and sometimes I feel like I'm at the end of my rope, He says that it is His doing bringing me to this place of the wilderness and barrenness in the spirit. It is so I will learn to sing in the midst of pain and hard times and so I will learn to go to Him and lean on Him instead of all the other things of this world. He does this in His kindness towards me! So that's whats on my heart today! On another note, it was Trinity's 1st Birthday yesterday! We just had a couple people over and had pizza, cake and opened presents. She loved the cake. Thought I'd put some pics up of our beautiful girl! Bless you all today! ~Hilary

Yummy carrot cake!

Opening presents

Playing with our friend Christiane
(Tom got her the cute outfit and clip in Hawaii)