Saturday, January 24, 2009

Motherhood thoughts

Thinking a lot about motherhood these days. Of course that makes sense since that is my life! The other day I was chatting with Tom telling him how the babes were crawling all over me and la la laing (singing) and so on. He said "isn't that what you thought motherhood would be like?" Then it hit me, yep I did. I thought for the most part it would be pretty easy lots of fun, just cuddling, laughing and playing. What I am learning now is it is so much more than that, it is teaching, disciplining, cleaning, loving, and praying. I'm realizing we Mom's are stronger than we think and have a lot more inside than others know. Sometimes I struggle with not being able to go to the prayer room as much or not being able to go to all the amazing meetings where Holy Spirit shows up. But today I am very thankful for the kind of life I live. I am blessed to stay at home with my little ones and to pour into them. I am still an intercessor and prayer warrior. Just more of a hidden one! My house is literally a House of Prayer. So just learning to really live a lifestyle of prayer that no matter what I am doing that I am praising God while doing it, finding Him in it, and talking to Him! Today we had a family devotional before Tom went off to the prayer room. He was singing and playing the guitar and I was running around trying to finish up cleaning, get my coffee and bible so I could sit and join them. I had a question about the coffee but felt bad for interrupting Tom while he was in worship. He said "don't be sorry this is how we should live, do our normal everyday stuff while communing with God at the same time." I liked that!

I'm also finally taking some one's advice they gave me when I first had Samuel. It was to find a rhythm in being a Mom and that the rhythm will always be changing but embrace the rhythm the Lord has for you in each season. So I just started a new rhythm since Tom's schedule changed. It is getting up before everyone else does, get ready and get with the Lord. It is only an hour some days less if I accidentally sleep in. I've just found that if I don't do this I am a grump and my heart isn't as alive. I've also been reading through the Old Testament which has been lots of fun for me. I feel like I am getting addicted to the Lord again and that a fresh hunger is coming. I know there is so much more to say because it has been a while but I think this is long enough and pray you are all blessed this weekend!

Monday, January 12, 2009

Bath Time fun!

Here's some pics from bath time tonight!

Look how much they look alike.

He splashed her and thought that was so funny

For some reason our children love ducks
(hmm pastor Chris)

What a Beauty!

Monday, January 5, 2009

Learning to live with out offense!

It's a new day and a new year! I'm happy for that! So on New Years Eve I went to bed my usual time at 10 and fireworks went on and on till 4am. Yep we live in the South! So I was getting very mad, thinking all these things like..."don't these people have kids and need to sleep?" "these people are so disrespectful, I'm pregnant and need to sleep" and on and on went my complaining. I was so angry, it was not a pretty sight. I rolled over and told Tom how angry I was he said "that's not good." So I lay there talking with the Lord about it why I was so angry, and how I don't even know these people and I am so offended at them. How can I be so angry over such a small thing. Then I felt the Lord say"Hilary I am taking offense and anger out of your heart this year" I thought oh great. Then more fireworks went off, I couldn't help but laugh and laugh it was like something broke off of me. It was a great way to start the New Year off with the Lord.

So far little challenges have happened like the kid's waking up early from there naps which makes it so I don't get much alone time. Not being able to sleep at night which makes the next day hard. Finances not coming in like they were suppose to on certain dates. Etc. So when these things have happened this week instead of getting angry at the circumstances I've been coming to the Lord again (it has been a while) and I've asked Him to take my anger and fill me with His love. It has been hard cause I have to re-train myself that instead of turning to anger I have to turn to Him. It has been worth it though! I feel break through in my heart and that's what I've been needing. Thank you Lord!

Usually when I am offended at someone or at a circumstance it really just means I am offended at the Lord. So I found this today Acts 24:16 "This being so, I myself always strive to have a conscience without offense toward God and men." What a great prayer, Lord let us have a conscience without offense toward you and toward men. Amen!

Love you all ~ Hilary