team tom and hilary

Thank you Lord!

2011-11-21T08:37:00.000-05:00

Thank you Lord, Thank you Lord are the words on my lips today! It's been a while since I've written and honestly it's because I haven't had anything good to say. I always remember what my Mom use to say " if you don't have something nice to say don't say it at all". Well that has been me, lots of negativeness going on about the season I am, I've been quite complainy (is that a word?). But today I was reminded to be thankful, not just because Thanksgiving is coming up but because this is the way God has asked us to live every day!
Today I'm thankful for:
God saving my soul and turning my life around
My Husband who is snuggling with baby Jude so I can have a little break.
My almost 5 year old boy who is making me a house out of legos right now.
My 3 year old girl who just told me she can fold her clothes all by herself.
My 2 year old girl who just tapped me on the shoulder and said can I have juice please.
My 4 month old boy who loves sticking his tongue out these days.
That we have family only 4 hours away that we get to see in 2 days.
That I have a good friend to walk with every morning
For all our friends that come over once a week to fellowship together
For my family in Seattle
For our lovely home and it's fresh painted walls
For the community that we live in

That's just a start and my heart feels so much better after thanking the Lord for everything He's done! Here's my cuties jumping off their picnic table into the leaves! I even jumped in the leaves with them it was so much fun to be like a child! Have a blessed day in Him today!

My heart is overflowing with a good theme!

2011-10-08T15:30:00.000-04:00

My heart is overflowing with a good theme! This is how I feel today! I'm very thankful and overflowing with joy. This has been a hard season to be quite honest. The whole transition from 3 kids to 4 kids was harder for me than 2 to 3 but I'm slowly starting to get the hang of it. Though it has been hard I've been focusing on counting my blessings, being thankful, focusing on Him rather than the lack of sleep etc. Don't get me wrong I have had some pity parties, but I'm learning to repent quickly, get back up, and gaze on Him once again! The Lord has been giving me little reminders to be thankful and to choose joy in the midst of chaos. It says in 1 Thessalonians 5:18 to give thanks in all circumstances for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. As I took all my kids to the doctor the other day alone I was complaining walking in and a little anxious hoping there would be no melt downs etc. then I look up and their fall decoration at the desk said "Be thankful". It changed my whole mood. So I sat there with all my sweeties and chose to be thankful for their little lives, thankful that I can have children, thankful that God chose me to raise them, thankful that they are all healthy, my heart started to overflow with a good theme. My heart feels so much more alive when I choose to be thankful and choose joy!

Here's what I'm thankful for today! Jude Daniel Lacy!

Have a blessed day!

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!

2011-09-01T08:44:00.000-04:00

It's a new day with new mercies! I was able to get up before all the kiddos and enjoy some coffee and prayer time with the Lord. Oh how I miss starting the day out like this. My verse these days has been Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!" And the phrase I've been singing around the house is "Jesus help us!"

I'm still learning how to do this mothering thing, wife thing and homemaker thing...I had some rough days this last week but I've been trying to do things out of my own strength and not turning to God. I just started working out again and sometimes it is so hard to go downstairs and get on that treadmill but once I do it I feel so much better, as I'm working out I keep saying that scripture I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!

The other day I took all the kids to the store, we really needed groceries and we all needed to get out of the house. It is such a task to go the the store with all four alone but it needs to be done. I usually dread the looks and comments from people and of course the melt downs from the kids. I had Jude strapped on me in a sling, Samuel and Esther were in the cart and Trinity walked with me. As I drove I kept saying the verse over and over again and as I walked through the store I kept saying the verse and Jesus help us. This time I was able to smile at the people that made comments instead of letting it irritate me and there was only one melt down in line and it really wasn't that bad. I'm realizing that God really is my strength!

As I wake up in the morning from a long night of waking and nursing Jude, I give praise to Him for my little blessings and ask for more of His strength and His help. I read a blog from a friend recently and they said that " if my day is crappy, I have only myself to blame." That has stuck with me, I can choose joy and thankfulness or I can choose to be a grump and in a bad mood, it really is a choice. So today I'm choosing joy and I'm choosing to lean into God and ask for His strength and grace!

There's some thoughts for you, now time to make the little ones some breakfast. Here's a pic. of my sweeties enjoying Popsicle's in the hammock, I will post more of baby Jude soon! Bless you all!

Praise the Lord!

2011-08-18T11:36:00.000-04:00

Praise the Lord Jude is healed! We are all home and Jude is recovering well! Thank you all for your prayers this last week! I thought I would share what happened with Jude. It all started last Tuesday out of nowhere. He couldn't keep anything down and was projectile vomiting. I took him to his pediatrician on Thursday and he said it was reflux. By Sunday he was visibly dehydrated so we took him to ER. He had lost 2 lbs, he was 10.5lbs on Thursday and was below his birth weight by Sunday. We went to Childrens' Mercy where they did blood tests and a ultrasound on his belly. They diagnosed him with pyloric stenosis, it is a narrowing of the pylorus, the opening from the stomach to the small intestine. In pyloric stenosis the muscles in the pylorus are thickened, the thickening prevents the stomach from entering into the small intestine. Pyloric stenosis is more common in boys than girls and runs in families. My brother actually had this when he was Jude's age. We are so thankful to finally know what was going on with our boy. They hooked up to IVs and was getting everything he needed without vomiting for a change. Yesterday Jude had a small low risk operation called a pyloromyotomy to split the over developed muscles. He was monitored for 24hrs and released last night! He is doing really well at home and is back to normal feedings with out vomiting. We are overwhelmed by all who have stood up and pitched in. And so thankful for your prayers, we definitely felt them lifting us up. So thankful for you all who came over and stayed with the kids and for the ones that brought over food and for the ones that came to visit us in the hospital. We really felt the love! So thankful for the Body of Christ and God is good to the Lacys! Love you all!

He gently leads those with young!

2011-08-08T16:34:00.000-04:00

I'm enjoying this newborn season! Some of the things I'm enjoying right now is Jude's squeaks and grunts, how his forehead wrinkles up when he's trying to open his eyes, that he still likes to snuggle, how he falls asleep on my chest. The other morning it was 6am and he woke to be nursed again and as I was thinking "oh I'm so tired" he gave me this sweet smile. It made my day! Instead of starting off with complaining Jude reminded me to start of with thanksgiving! I love it because every time the Lord gives us a baby He draws us closer to him. As I rock my baby to get him back to sleep I am reminded to pray, to thank God for this little blessing's He's given us. Every time I nurse I am able to actually sit and rest and it reminds me to pray!

I happened upon this verse today:
Isaiah 40:11
He will feed His flock like a shepherd;
He will gather the lambs with His arm,
And carry them in His bosom,
And gently lead those who are with young

I love that God is gently leading me as I'm raising these young ones. He's not condemning me but He is patient with me and He is being a good shepherd, holding me close and leading me gently. I love His word it is so encouraging!

Be blessed today!

~Hilary

Jude Daniel Lacy is here!

2011-08-04T12:34:00.000-04:00

On July 13th at 9:10am Jude Daniel Lacy was born! Jude means praise, Daniel means God is my judge and Lacy means cheerful! So as you know we were waiting and I had a feeling that he was going to come early but of course wasn't sure. He came 9 days early which was a blessing to us! Here's the short story:

I had been having contractions for about a week but nothing too consistent. Then at 3am the contractions woke me up and were 10 minutes apart and pretty painful. So I timed them for an hour and decided to wake up Tom and tell him. He was up and ready to go, we finished getting things ready at the house in between contractions and called our friend that stayed with the kids. Then headed to the hospital around 6am. When we got there my contractions had slowed down and I felt too peaceful I thought maybe it wasn't real labor but it was and it was the Lord bringing me peace. So I was 4cm when I got there which was discouraging but things sped up fast. I was able to walk around and sit on the birthing ball to speed things up. We had the prayer room playing on our computer and it was so peaceful in the room. Everything lined up perfectly, we had the midwife that I prayed for and had amazing nurses too. Tom was super joyful the whole time and encouraging me that I could do it! Then my water broke I think around 8am and the contractions were more painful. Then at 9am they said I was completely dilated and effaced, I pushed 4 pushes about 10 minutes and he was out. It was beautiful I was able to hold him for a long time and nurse and he was just perfect! While I was in labor our friend that was staying with the kids had a dream and in the dream there was an angel in the room with us at the hospital telling me when to push and when we came back from the hospital we were saying there was so much peace. That is just how it was, there was so much peace in the room and we could feel the Lord's presence!

Jude has such a sweet spirit, he is nursing well and sleeping well, he is such joy! It was so great to have Tom home to help out so I can rest and so we can enjoy being a family. Also thank you to all who made us a meal that was a huge blessing! It has been a sweet time enjoying our new home and our new baby. I feel like my heart is coming more alive and I am experiencing more of God and more joy in my life.

Our camera is broken and I can't seem to figure out how to download the ones from the Iphone so more pic.'s to come soon but here's the one I could figure out how to post. This is right after I had him, so happy to finally hold my precious gift!

Thanks again to all who have helped and to everyone that has prayed for our family! The kids are adjusting well and there is so much grace right now and I know it is because our dear friends and family are praying! May the Lord bless you all!

~Hilary

Family update!

2011-07-12T15:31:00.000-04:00

We are all moved into our new house and loving it! All the boxes are unpacked, now I just need to decorate, paint, hang curtains etc. Some friends came and deep cleaned for me which was a huge blessing! I'm so thankful for our new home, it is so peaceful and so spacious! It is nice to have enough room to where there's a place to put everything. It is great to see the kids so happy too, they are loving their new rooms and their play room. We have a pool set up in the back yard and are enjoying summer. We also have good friends that live next door that have kids the same age which is another plus. It's so nice to have community again!

My Dad, Aunt and Uncle recently came to visit for 3 days and we had a blast. The kids just loved them all it was so nice to have family here! We went to the zoo, went swimming in the pool at their hotel, went out to eat, had fun shopping together, and then had them over for 4th of July. My Dad blessed us and made lots of yummy food for us and our friends that night, it was great time! Makes me appreciate my family and miss them so much more, I'm thankful they were able to come visit!

In other news, we are waiting for our little baby Jude Daniel to make his appearance! The girls have been dressing up their baby dolls with his clothes and pretending it is Jude and almost every morning they ask is the baby here? Which I then say nope and point to my rather large belly : ) Samuel is really excited too and can't wait to hold him. We are praying he will come in perfect timing and that everything will line up just right. I packed my bag the other night. His little area in our room is all set up and now we are just waiting....I heard once that the baby can come anywhere from two weeks before your due date or two weeks after so I'm trying to posture my heart in that way. He is due July 22nd, But of course earlier would be nicer!

So here's some pic.'s for ya!

I'm loving the kitchen in our new home, so much space for me to do what I need to do and the kids can help too!

Here's Samuel and my Dad riding a camel at the zoo, making memories! He was so happy!

All the yummy food my Dad made for July 4th! He is amazing!

My lovely family! Esther just adored my Aunt it was so sweet!

And the belly shot at 38 weeks!

Would appreciate prayers for our family as we transition from a family of 5 to a family of 6! Thank you all and bless you!

~Hilary

My heart these days...

2011-06-16T08:42:00.000-04:00

Sipping on my coffee this morning contending for peace in my heart and home today! We are one week away from our move and even though it is just down the street this move seems harder than it did from SC to MO. Could be the fact that I am 34weeks pregnant I don't know. So I'm reflecting on this pregnancy, this new season we are about to go into and realizing the Lord is doing so much in my heart. All of this "transition" as people say around here is super humbling. I've cried out and cried out for a new house and He heard my cry and is answering my prayer for sure. The funny thing is it happens not on my timing but His and not my way but His. I remember thinking we will move before I get too pregnant and when we have all the money saved up. No and no, God is funny that way. So I've been learning I have to step out and ask in my weakness and that has been super hard. Asking God for help and asking others for help. I've always been one to do everything on my own, try to be the strong one and just get it all done. I'm learning that He loves the weak ones, the ones that don't have anything, need help and cry out. He has been super faithful through all this, he's bringing in the finances for the house and bringing in the help that I need to pack it all up and clean. Which is amazing but all my junk in my heart is coming up in the process : ) When I say it has been humbling is that I've had a lot of pride in my heart, thinking I can do it all on my own etc. I've felt like this pregnancy has been one of the hardest physically, not sure if it's cause I'm a little older or because I'm chasing after toddlers or what but my body is sore! So due to that I have to ask Tom for a lot of help around the house, I have to sit and rest more and during this move I've had to ask friends to come and help me pack while I sit and hold my babies and watch them do the work.... Well there's a little bit of my heart unveiled, gotta run the kiddos are arising!

Here's some pic.'s for ya!

The kids making a fort while I pack

We made a bed on the floor and let them have popcorn and watch a veggie tale while we pack up.

Here's my wonderful family enjoying the summer!

Also if you still want to give towards our move you can! Click on the donate button on our blog, give to us in person or make a check out to Tom and Hilary Lacy and send to 4603 E. 114th terrace Kansas City, MO 64137, or if you would like to give a tax deductible gift you can make it out to IHOP and send it to the above address with a sticky note that says for Tom and Hilary Lacy, our names can not be anywhere on the check if written to IHOP. Thanks so much! Bless you all!

Counting down!

2011-06-07T23:07:00.000-04:00

The count down begins, we are moving in two weeks and baby Jude Daniel is due to arrive in 6 weeks! So we are excited and busy that is for sure. So just wanted to write a quick update and thank you to all you have given towards this move, we are pretty close to our goal. We still need $1000 more but the Lord has been so faithful to provide!

If you still would like to give towards the move you can click on the donate button on our blog, give to us in person or make a check out to Tom and Hilary Lacy and send to 4603 E. 114th terrace Kansas City, MO 64137, or if you would like to give a tax deductible gift you can make it out to IHOP and send it to the above address with a sticky note that says for Tom and Hilary Lacy, our names can not be anywhere on the check if written to IHOP. Thanks so much! Bless you all!

We are moving!

2011-05-28T17:15:00.000-04:00

So only 10 minutes away from where we live now but yay we are moving into a bigger house! When we moved from SC to MO I felt like the Lord said just one year in this house Hilary. So it has been longer than a year and we've been seeking and asking the Lord to open a door to a new place and He did! There were some things about this house that made a little bit hard, no dishwasher, unable to paint the walls, non working closets, carpet in the kitchen and bathroom, only one bathroom(kind a hard with all 5 of us not to mention potty training one and me being prego!). But the Lord really was asking me to be thankful for what I have, so He dealt with my heart for many months on choosing thankfulness. Really the only thing I really prayed for when moving to MO was a big yard with a fence and this house had that for sure!

So this time around I prayed more specifically! I asked for a 4 bedroom 2 bathroom, more space for the kids to play, dishwasher, working closets, option to paint, linoleum or hardwood floors in kitchen and bathrooms, nice fenced in yard. So the Lord gave me all that and more! We are moving into a 4 bedroom 3 bathroom, with a nice sized playroom downstairs for the kids plus all the things I mentioned I had asked for! Also I've been wanting to start a garden and the people living there before us already put down soil I just have to plant what I would like! As you can tell I'm very excited! The other good thing about this house it is only $50 more a month which is a huge blessing! With 2 months left of this pregnancy I am ready to get settled and it is time to nest!

As you know it costs to make a move, I'm thankful this move won't cost as much as last time. But we are in need of about $3000 in order to make this move by June 21st. Please prayerfully consider giving to us specifically for this move! You can click on the pay pal button on our blog, give to us in person or make a check out to Tom and Hilary Lacy and send to 4603 E. 114th terrace Kansas City, MO 64137, or if you would like to give a tax deductible gift you can make it out to IHOP and send it to the above address with a sticky note that says for Tom and Hilary Lacy, our names can not be anywhere on the check if written to IHOP. Thanks so much and we will post pic.'s soon!

Esther turns 2!

2011-05-20T22:51:00.000-04:00

Esther Gloria Lacy is 2! Esther was my Mother's day gift two years ago. She has brought so much joy and laughter to our family. She carries so much peace and has such a sweet spirit. I'm so excited to see her grow in God!

We had a small birthday party for her to celebrate! I love going all out but last time we tried to do that it didn't quite work out with our size of house and was rather overwhelming. So this time we kept it small and simple. We did a flower/picnic theme. It was suppose to be outside and we were going to have blankets to sit on and have sack lunches etc. The weather was rather cold so we brought it inside set up blankets and let the kids eat their sack lunches on the floor. They were all super cute! We were able to have a time of prayer where all of Esther's little friends gathered and prayed for her! I feel so blessed to live in this community and have such sweet friends that love the Lord with all their heart and know how to love us so well in return! Enjoy the pic.'s!

Such a joyful girl!

Flower cupcakes and sack lunches!

Time to pray!

We made crowns for all the little ones, this was our 7th attempt to take the picture!

Happy Mother's Day!

2011-05-08T17:01:00.000-04:00

As I celebrate Mother's Day today, I'm reflecting on my Mom, on all the Mom's who have been there for me spiritually, on all my Mommy friends, and all my friends waiting and praying their day will come soon to be a Mom.

My Mom was here last week visiting and we had a blast! She flew in on Tuesday and I was in need of a break... She always seems to come to visit right when I need some Mommy time! So on Wednesday Tom spent the day with the kids while my Mom and I went out for coffee, shopping and lunch. It was so good to have some time catching up and some quality time(my love language!). It was great to see her play with the kids and see them get all excited to be with her. We went to the zoo, went to a farm, got to swim in the pool at her hotel and lots of other fun things. Every day was jammed packed and I am so thankful she came, I feel so refreshed!

Today the kids and I went to church while Tom worked his morning shift at the prayer room. They honored Mom's today, each child made a flower made out of tissue paper, so cute! At Trinity's class they were asked what they like most about their Mom and she said I like when she takes me to the park, colors with me and makes me yummy food. I thought that was so cute! Tom had the kids each pick a card and gift out for me and he asked them to think of one word that describes me. Samuel said sweet, Trinity said beautiful and Esther said table. I thought that was so funny, I guess they like me making them meals! Tom got me some hanging plants for outside and one indoor plant, the kids got me a candle, earrings and a new water bottle. I'm not usually huge on gifts but it was really nice to receive the gifts and all the kids words. My love tank is full!

This scripture describes my day! Proverbs 31:28 Her children rise up and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her!

Here's a pic. of us with my Momma. Bless all you Momma's and Momma's to be!

Learning to sew & quick update!

2011-04-27T08:14:00.000-04:00

So I've been attempting to sew lately and I'm enjoying it so much! Here's some pic.'s of my practice projects! I made these aprons for the little ones since they love to help me when I'm baking or cooking. They each have there first intial of there name on it. Then I made this nursing cover(not the best pic.) for my dear friend Kathrine who will be having her first baby real soon! Also made this little onesie for him, well didn't make it just sewed the whale applique on it. I'm really excited for my next projects like curtains and some pillow covers once I get some fabric. This has a been a great way for me to be creative and to pray at the same time. I think this will be my new thing to do during nap time!

Other news, baby boy on the inside is doing good and moving a lot these days. He feels huge already and I still have 3 months to go : ) My Mom will be here tomorrow, which I am so excited to see her and spend some quality time with her! Then Tom's Dad and family will be here on Saturday, which will be great to see them as well! Tom will be going on a ministry trip soon, prayers are appreciated! If anyone would like to come help this prego Mama of 3 under 4yrs. old, that would be a blessing!

Some more good news is I just found out my Dad and Aunt and Uncle will be visiting the beginning of July, I haven't seen them all in a long time so it will be really good for my heart as well! We also have some dear friends visiting in July and they might be here when I have the baby. So I have a lot to look forward to! I love having visitors and family here with us, makes my heart happy and my kids happy : )

Have a blessed day!

Trip to St. Louis

2011-04-07T17:09:00.001-04:00

I'm really enjoying my family and resting more! Been super thankful for all the life in our home lately. My kids bring so much joy to Tom and I. We recently took a trip to St. Louis, MO to visit our dear friends that live there and to rest. It was such a wonderful time. The drive was great for the most part, towards the end Esther kept saying "outch, outch, outch" while squirming in her seat, which means out, out, out. The drive is only 4 hours but we stopped half way at a Burger King to eat and let the kiddos run around. The play area was huge and meant for a little bit older kids but Esther was determined to do what her brother and sister were doing and then she wouldn't come down. So Tom had to climb all the way to the top to get her. It was quite hilarious, glad we were the only people in there. In St. Louis we spent lots of time with our friends just living life together. They have a son that is Samuel's age and a daughter that is Esther's age and then a baby boy about 5 mths old, all so cute! It was great to see how they live and what I love most about them is they live simple. They love the Lord with all there heart, soul and strength, they teach there kids how to and others how to also. True servants and lovers of God! Can't say enough good things about them! We spent a day at the park with them, went to there house of prayer one evening, went to a family fun/pizza place all together, spent a girls day out with my friend(that was amazing!), had a date night out with Tom(another amazing time!) and spent time out in there beautiful yard letting the kids play and run. The last evening we spent praying all together, great way to end the week!

Before we left on vacation I was super tired, stressed, and just needed a break from the mundane. Coming back we have a new outlook on life! We are thankful for what we have and hopeful for the future! We've been praying more as a couple and as a family which is changing the atmosphere in our home!

Here's some pic.'s from the trip!

Samuel and his buddy Micah at the park

Driving in the van!

Samuel and Selah at the family fun place

The girls having a tea party!

On the way home, every one fell asleep!

Winter pic.'s

2011-03-13T16:58:00.000-04:00

Hello again, I thought I would do a blog with pic.'s since it has been a while. I had to get creative this winter since it has been a LONG one! So here's some pic.'s of the things I've been doing with the kiddo's. I can't seem to figure out how to do these pic.'s and captions on here so we will see how this turns out. Enjoy!

Of course we've been dressing up! Here's Samuel as Mater from the cars movie, Trinity as a flower, and Esther had to jump in between them for the pic.

Here's the girls bowling

We put tape down and mad a road for the cars, that kept them busy for a couple days.

Here's some artwork

They had a blast using glue, pasta, beans and scrap paper.

This is one of the kids favorite things to do. We took beans and put them in muffin tins. We did this for about an hour one day.

Of course there is the times where we had to snuggle and watch a movie.

I made this diaper cake the other day for my dear friend's baby shower! It was so much fun to get creative and to be able to bless her with this pretty gift!

Had to post some of them posing! My friend made these hats for them. It says LIFE on them, to pray for the unborn!

What can I say, I am blessed! 3 cuties and one more on the way! BTW in case you didn't hear the news we are going to be having a baby boy in July! So excited!

Happy Salvation day to me!

2011-02-13T23:28:00.000-05:00

Happy Valentine's day to you all! I'm blessing the Lord for this day, I was saved on this day 10 years ago. I remember it very clearly searching and searching for love and was not finding it anywhere. Was very hurt and very unhappy. I grew up in a non Christian home didn't go to church, parents were divorced at a young age. Then fast forward I was about 21 I wasn't into drugs or alcohol was pretty much a "good girl" trying to please everyone but had been seeking for love, just really wounded and hurt and ended up in a bad relationship with a guy. He was a gambler and into drinking and drugs. I was a waitress and worked and worked to give him money. Took out loans for him etc. He would say he was going to pay me back and then didn't. Each time I believed that he would, I thought he was going to change. I really believed I was going to get love in return for doing this for him. I was super deceived at the time, not knowing who I was or what I deserved or that I was even loved. I just was super hurt by people and it was getting to the point where I couldn't trust anyone. It was getting pretty bad and I was really depressed. Then I thought most of my Christian friends are always happy oh I should go to church then. Searched for churches then found this church and went to it for a while. Just went by myself and sat in the back then left real fast because I was so afraid to talk to people and that I would get hurt. One day I filled out this connection card and I checked the box that said I have questions and would like someone to call me. So the pastor called me and we started meeting weekly and I had my list of questions for him about what was being taught and about the bible. Finally one day(Valentine's Day) when I met with my pastor I gave my heart to the Lord!(Bless you Pastor Chris!) At that time I was still in this bad relationship I would have weekly meetings with one of our pastors(Love ya Terre) and he would coach me through how to leave this guy. Finally left him and from there started a process of healing with the Lord. About a year later I started getting hungry for the Lord and for His word, the word was coming alive. I would stay up late at night and read the bible. They started having prayer meetings at our church where we were learning prophecy and learning about the Holy Spirit. During this same time is when I met Tom, he was the leader of my small group. Tom and I started meeting and going out for coffee and just reading the bible and going after John 15:1-5 all about abiding. Then I found out about IHOP and the One thing conference and raised money to go. I had never been around so many young people loving the Lord and had never experienced this kind of worship. At the conference I decided I needed to do an internship and I felt like if I didn't go right then, then I probably never would. So raised money and with in a week went to do the internship, moved and Tom and I were together at that time and did a long distance relationship for 8 months. There I grew so much, living in community, learned how to pray, first time learning about end times and stuff but the big thing was I learned that God really loves me actually He likes me. That it's not about petitions it's about a friendship a relationship. Found out who I am in Him, that I am beautiful in His sight, that I am lovely and His delight. All this was new to me, I always longed for an identity and finally found one in Him. My prayers were being answered one after another with provision and heart issues. He did all this because He loves me and that's it He love us guys! I mean it's not just some saying He really does. I finally came to that place of being able to receive His love and once I received His love I was able to pour out my love whole heartedly. And now this is the kind of life I am called to live is be a radical lover of God, my husband is and we are raising are kids to be radical lovers of God.

Today I am thanking the Lord for His kindness towards me! What a journey it has been. The Lord healed my heart in so many areas and continues to. My dream was to be able to pray all day, I didn't think it ever would be possible. As all you know it is! The Lord is so good to me, he saved me and set me free, he's healed me in so many ways and even on my bad days He still loves me. Another dream of mine was to be married with kids. It is all I ever wanted. I was praying for "the one" and I would always say I wanted 10 children. Looks like God is answering prayer! I definitely met the love of my life, we are going on 5 yrs married this Friday, so exciting. Looks like God is giving me those children I asked for and He's doing it fast. So all this to say....He is good and I am blessed. I pray He will show you He is love today just He did for me!
~Hilary

The wind of the Spirit, the breath of God will sustain you!

2011-02-08T17:06:00.000-05:00

My prayer has been sustain me and refresh me oh God. Honestly it has been a rough season for me lately. It's freezing here and we've had snow for forever now. Our car isn't always starting only some days depending on how cold it is. We all got sick and then I just ran out of strength to keep it together. I've been seeing my weaknesses, my heart struggles, and realizing I really can't live this life on my own, I can't do it without God. I can't control everything and that life isn't always going to look the way I want it to look like. So this week has been a real turning point for me as I have had to be honest with myself, with Tom and with the Lord that I've been trying to do things my own way and not His way. Yikes that is a scary reality. I realized I've pulled a little bit away from God. I've been doing my normal bible reading each morning, praying through out the day and with the kids and Tom but still in my heart I just wasn't being honest with the Lord. So yesterday as I was making breakfast I had the webstream on in the kitchen, which is my favorite thing to do in the mornings. So I'm stirring the oatmeal and the worship leader starts singing " There's someone in here that has pulled back from the Lord just a little bit, something has caused you to doubt, to question His goodness. There's a pain inside that He wants to touch this morning." That is when I lost it and just wept and wept in the kitchen. He was speaking right to me! I had pulled back I had doubted His goodness and I had pain. Then the worship leader sang "Do not loose heart, do not grow weary of doing good, don't pull back, don't abandon your goals you set before me to be a woman filled with the word of God. Keep going, keep pressing, keep believing. The wind of the Spirit, the breath of God will sustain you!" Just what I wanted to hear, and I felt Him, I felt Him in my kitchen ministering to my heart. I felt Him refreshing me and sustaining me! I just love those God moments, I needed that refreshing! Just felt like someone else needed to hear this and to be reminded that He sees you, He hears your cry and He will sustain you, He will come to you and He is good! He loves you!
~Be blessed today, Hilary!

Catching ya up to speed!

2011-01-20T08:52:00.000-05:00

So, yep is has been forever since I blogged. Don't really have any excuses...so thought I'd catch ya up to speed!

December

-Enjoyed baking with the kids and doing lots of Christmas crafts
-Our friends blessed us with a Christmas tree, they brought it to our doorstep and everything!
-Read the story of baby Jesus to the kids and watched some Christmas movies with them, had fun making memories!
-The kids enjoyed acting out the story, Samuel would say that he was Joseph and Trinity was Mary and that they were going to Bethlehem to have baby Jesus. Then he would say that we have to go to Bethlehem to have our baby and that there's not going to be any room for us. : )
-Our car had broken down right before Christmas. Again our friends blessed us with their car to borrow for the weekend that turned into a week!
-We attended the Christmas Eve service at IHOP. Christmas Eve services have always been my favorite! It was a little hard to stay focused with our little ones squirming all over the place, but it was fun to be out and celebrate as a family and hear the word!
-We were really blessed this year by our family with money and gift cards and were able to get a lot off gifts for the kids. It was so much fun to see there excitement and joy as they opened the gifts!
-Christmas day we had a big breakfast together, opened presents, talked about Jesus, the kids played with all there new stuff and we just enjoyed resting. After nap time we went to our friends house for dinner. They have a son around Esther's age and they have a lot of space for the kids to run around, we had an amazing time together!
-Missed my family lots this Christmas and hoping to make a visit to Seattle this year!
-We were able to get our car fixed! Some friends and funders helped us out financially plus we had some saved up for the car. We had to get a new water pump, timing belt and a new alternator. A lot of work (Tom did most of it!) but super thankful we have our car back!
-The Onething conference was after Christmas and it went on into the New Year. It was amazing and I'm thankful we were able to attend, watch online and have my Hubby work at the conference. We are blessed! We also had some dear friends visiting for the conference so they stayed with us and we had some sweet times together! It was like have a bed and breakfast here, which I would love to have someday!

January
-Getting organized and planning to move soon (so there's no confusion, we are staying in KC just moving into a larger home) so the house hunting has started and boxing things up has started!
-Getting focused in the word again. Enjoying my mornings reading the bible and spending quiet time with the Lord. I notice if I don't start the day off this way it changes my whole mood and the atmosphere of my home.
-Feeling more pregnant! Starting to show already but it is the awkward stage, hopefully soon it will be the cute stage! I'm due July 22nd!
-Have lots more to say but the children are waking up! Hoping to write again soon! Be blessed today!

Samuel's 4th Birthday!

2010-11-28T17:28:00.000-05:00

My sweet, joyful boy turned 4 yesterday! We had a fishy party for him and is was so much fun! One day I asked him what kind of party he wanted, he looked over at the box of gold fish crackers and said "A fishy party". I said are you sure and he kept insisting on a fishy party so I looked online and found some ideas and copied them!
Here's the ocean scape card board cut out Tom made! The kids loved it!

we had the kids color a fish and then played pin the fish on the fish tank

And here's the fishy cake! The sand is grahm cracker crumbs, the seaweed is a fruit roll up and I used sweedish fish candies and fruit snacks for the fish.

Here's the birthday boy!

It was a great day, we made him pancakes and eggs and gave him breakfast in bed, opened presents and then did this party for him. He was soooo blessed and still has a cheesy grin on his face. I so enjoy blessing my children! So thankful for this little guy, he has brought so much joy and laughter into my life. Thought some of you out of staters might enjoy this post, love you!

~Hilary

For Today!

2010-11-25T16:26:00.000-05:00

I saw this outline from my friend Jenn's blog www.makmineblue.blogspot.com
I thought is was creative so I copied and added my stuff in!

FOR TODAY...

Outside my window... It is a beautiful day, cold but the sun is shining! Leaves are falling and the wind is blowing...We have a friends car I can see outside my window, so thankful for friends that let us borrow a car while ours is broken.

I am thinking... About what else I need to finish cooking before dinner.

I am thankful for... My Hubby who walks in joy and humility. Who serves and loves his family and others so well! I am thankful to have Him and my little ones to celebrate with today! I'm thankful for friends who call and check on us and pray with us when we are having a rough time. I'm thankful for our families in Seattle and that they care enough about us to send packages with love. I'm thankful to be saved and to be walking with the Lord. I'm thankful to be living the dream I always hoped for, being a wife and Mom! (of course it looks different but it is a blessing)

From the learning rooms... Samuel is learning his letters and tracing them a lot better now. He loves to count too. He is hungry to learn. Trinity is learning how to be a Mommy, she walks around with her babies and her purse-so cute! She is learning her ABC's too. Esther is talking more and asks "read a boot" which means read a book. She use to not be interested in books so this makes me happy that she likes them now. And of course she snuggles with me when I read to her.

From the kitchen... I'm making my first Turkey breast in the crock pot, making home made stuffing, home made rolls, my first apple pie(I had some already!), garlic mash potatoes, and sweet potato casserole. Missing my favorite green bean casserole because I forgot to buy green beans and now the store is closed, oops.

I am wearing... Blouse and jeans. My usual is T-shirt and jeans thought I would dress a little nicer for my Hubby since it is a holiday.

In Pregnancy news... I'm probably only 3 weeks a long but so excited! That is the talk around the house. Samuel says I need to eat for the baby and that we are going to have the baby in Bethlehem. Trinity prays for the baby her prayer is "Jesus help the baby Amen", Esther pats my belly and say "be be". Thinking it might be a long 9 months for them to have to wait, but it is sweet to see them so excited!

I am creating... Lots of goodies for Samuel's fishy party on Saturday, super excited!

I am going... to have a second cup of coffee soon, exhausted these days!
I am reading... "Raising kids who hunger for God" by Benny and Sheree Phillips. I need all the wisdom I can get!

I am hoping... it snows soon, I figure if it is going to be this cold it might as well snow.

I am hearing... kids squealing in there beds.
Around the house... It is clean for now only because it is nap time!
One of my favorite things...Date nights, I love one on one time with my Hubby!
A few plans for the rest of the week: Turkey dinner tonight, Samuel's party Saturday, dear friends are in town for a visit this weekend, towing the car on Monday and hopefully it will be fixed on Tuesday.

Ending with a Picture...

Thankful for you all, have a blessed Thanksgiving!

Yes it is true!

2010-11-17T07:41:00.000-05:00

Just had to blog and say yes it is true we are pregnant again! YAY! We are soooooo excited! As many of you know our children are pretty close together. Samuel and Trinity are 16 months apart and Trinity and Esther are 13 months apart. So after Esther I asked the Lord if I could take a longer break. I wanted Esther to be at least 12 months and I wanted to loose all my weight I had gained from each pregnancy. Esther is 18 months and a week ago I lost all my weight. God is funny that way! I've been having the desire for a new baby for about 4 months now so I knew it probably would be soon because each time I have a desire then soon after I get pregnant! Also Samuel has been talking a lot about having a new baby and saying "it is time Momma, it has been too long". So we've been telling him to pray and ask God for a baby, so this is the fruit of Samuel's prayers!

We took four tests just to be sure! (love those dollar store tests!) We gathered the kids in our little classroom and told them the exciting news. Samuel jumped up for joy he was so excited! Trinity and Esther not so sure if they understand, they kept looking for the baby. Tom drew a picture on our white board of Momma and a baby in Momma's belly and then a picture of our family, what it looks like now and then when the baby comes what it is going to look like. They loved it! They keep coming to my belly and saying I love you baby, and they pray for the baby. I'm just so thankful! It is for sure a new season for us! I love how much joy a new life brings!

So on a practical side...we would love you to pray for us! We are in need of a new house, this one is too small! We are also in need of a second vehicle, mini-van or suburban! Right now all 5 of us are packed into our Toyota Camry. We also will need new beds for all the little ones! Really appreciate your prayers and if you would like to give in any way click the donate button on our site! Be blessed today!

~Hilary

Our life

2010-11-14T08:18:00.000-05:00

Highlights of our life these days! I lost 10lbs! I wasn't going to mention that I was trying to loose weight to any one but now I am pretty proud of myself. Feels good to be back to the same weight that I was when we got married. I finally got some motivation and started Weight Watchers again. It has taught me how to eat healthy, portion control and to not eat emotionally but to have self control. It has been great for our family too, the kids see me eating carrots and want to join me rather than a cookie! Tom has joined me since he saw that is works. It has been a lot of fun planning meals together and tracking our points etc. So now I just need to start exercising again, the belly is hard to get rid of after 3 kids.

The kids are doing great as usual! I love all there little personalities. I do have to say that they are all pretty hilarious, a lot like Daddy! Samuel is talking a lot about God these days, he loves to pray, and he is loving school too! We have a little classroom set up, just got a white board and it has been a lot of fun teaching them!

Trinity is quite a character. She loves to dress up in Samuel's Thomas the tank engine pajamas and puts on a funny hat. She enjoys helping me with anything I am doing, she says "Momma I help". So I'm learning how to include her in all my tasks of cooking and cleaning.

Esther is super joyful, creative and funny. She is thoughtful and sweet, I see her bringing her brother or sister there sippy cup or blanket just to be nice. She loves to dance and she gives good hugs and kisses.

Tom is such a blessing, has been helping out around the house and recently fixed our car! PTL! I've had some rough days recently and he cam home and prayed for me and spoke life and truth into me. So thankful for him in my life! Ok getting all sappy and teary eyed now! Just needed to babble a little today, hope you all have a blessed day!

~Hilary

God cares about the little things!

2010-10-07T06:59:00.004-04:00

I'm realizing this past week that God cares about the little things in life. That He longs to speak to us in the mundane of life and that He longs for relationship. This week I was driving with the kids to Chick-fil-a, I'm used to Tom driving so I couldn't remember how to get there from the store we were at. So I say "Lord please just show me how to get there" then Samuel says "Momma Jesus says yes He's going to show you" so I'm thinking wow ok. I keep driving still not seeing it thinking I went too far. Then I say "should I turn here or go straight ahh God show me" Samuel says again "Momma Jesus says yes He's going to show you" so I felt like I was suppose to go straight and there it was! I said "Samuel your right Jesus showed us" and he says "I told you Momma Jesus said yes." That was so good for my heart realizing that God hears the little cries of my heart, that He is listening and He will answer and show me the way to go.

Recently I've started homeschooling with Samuel and Trinity. I have been waking up before them each morning and I ask God what to do today and He shows me. Some days I'm not sure if I heard right and I second guess myself. So we've been doing a letter each week. We were on C and hadn't stayed on it for quite a week yet but yesterday I felt like we were suppose to do the letter D. So we did our usual sing ABC's, do flashcards, then write the letter out then we did a craft and made a duck for D. Then Tom came home and we said oh D for Daddy. Tom had a band aid on his finger and it had Dinoco from the cars movie, Samuel noticed that right away, so we said oh D for Dinoco! Then we had a doctor's appointment and of course realized D for doctor. It sounds little but it made me so happy that God cared about the lesson plan for the day and made everything about the letter D!

I pray that God will speak to you today and show you that He cares about the little things in your life! Lord pour out your spirit on my friends, shower them with your loving kindness today. Make yourself real to them today in Jesus name! Amen!

Be blessed today!

~Hilary

Little update

2010-09-24T08:07:00.003-04:00

Hello again! It has been a while since I blogged, our computer has been down for 3 months now so haven't been able to keep up with blogging. We have been blessed with borrowing a friends computer for a week so I thought I would take this chance to update ya'll! Things are going well here in KC. We have been here for a little over 10 months now and still feel like we aren't totally settled yet but I hear it takes about a year until you feel completely settled. Our lease is up in a couple months and we will be looking for a new home. Need a little bit more space and a place with a dishwasher would be nice too!

Tom's been plugging away in the Media department at IHOP and he is on a prophesy team which he really enjoys! I recently started home school with Samuel and Trinity. It doesn't really feel like school since they are so young but I block out about 30 min to an hour and we do crafts or ABC's, numbers, shapes, the bible etc. I didn't think it would be much fun but now that we started I love it! We made one room into a school room with a table and chairs and a desk for me. Now we just have to decorate the walls, I'm really excited about this! I pray every morning and ask God what He wants me to teach them and He shows me and we do it. I think that is why it is working so well. Samuel is catching on so fast and really enjoys it.

Well there is much more I would love to share but the little ones are waking up, so have to run. Was reading this scripture today: Be Anxious for nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7

Bless you, Hilary

Wife, Mom and Lover of God!

2010-05-14T08:37:00.002-04:00

This last month I went to a Mom's night where an amazing lady spoke on being a wife, Mom and most of all being a lover of God. That was a life changing moment for me. Ever since I started having babies I have had a different walk with the Lord, it has still been amazing but so different than when I was single. She reminded us that even though we are a wife and Mom, that doesn't change that we are a lover of God. That before we were married and had children we were a L.O.G first(he he I loved it when she said that, LOG, lover of God). So I've been on this journey of seeking Him and singing praises to Him in the midst of housework and changing diapers, and it has been awakening my heart. I have been realizing that the more I love God and seek His face it causes me to love my husband better my children better and my family and friends better. It also makes me a lot more fun to be around, which is a bonus. So I am so thankful my eyes have been opened, to know that I don't have to put my relationship with God on hold just because I'm a mom is really exciting! The other awesome thing was that she said now that her boys are in their 20's she looks back at the time when they were little ones and realizes that that time is when she got oil with the Lord and it was a sweet time for her. So I am excited and living expectant now, knowing that I can get oil during this sweet season of my life!

I am also realizing also that it is o.k. to glean from others. I have been wanting to know how to be a Proverbs 31 woman. How to clean, cook, and take care of my home well. So I've been learning from others. I have been learning how to clean and how to organize my life from www.flylady.net This site has been so helpful, she uses little tips each day to make the house run smoothly and not be so messy. I'm still learning but enjoying having a cleaner home. Also have been learning from my friend Racquel, how to shop and save by using coupons. She has a lot of wisdom and I enjoy reading her blog. www.shoppingforwoolandflax.blogspot.com I am still a little bit nervous and overwhelmed at this coupon thing but am determined to save money for our family.

Hope this helps some of ya, have a blessed day!
~Hilary

Choosing life, joy and thankfulness!

2010-04-16T15:27:00.002-04:00

My heart feels alive today! Realizing it is something I have to choose each day is...life and life abundantly, I have to choose joy, and I have to choose thankfulness. This isn't always easy for me, I have always struggled with being negative and kind a down, still asking the Lord where this all stems from. I've received a lot of break through in this area in the last months with praying and asking the Lord to help me in this area and having my husband and others stand in agreement with me in prayer and calling me on it when I start speaking negative etc. So I've been trying to not focus on everything that sucks or that is hard in my life but focus on all the blessing the Lord has given me in the natural and spiritual, when I want to say how hard something is instead finding something good about that situation.

Here's some verses to ponder...
Psalm 100:4 Enter into His gates with thanksgiving, And into His courts with praise. Be thankful to Him, and bless His name
Psalm 16:11 You will show me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.

I pray the Lord will encounter you all with his love and joy today! Be blessed today!
~Hilary

Hi

2010-04-07T16:43:00.004-04:00

Well Hello! Sorry it has been so long, haven't been keeping up with the blogging much these days. Just thought I'd say a quick hi, the kids are starting to wake up from their naps. The girls share a room and it so sweet when the wake up the talk and giggle, it makes my heart happy! Samuel has a big boy bed now and he loves it and plays in his room as well, thank you Lord! Things are going well, getting into a routine here. Spring has arrived so that sure helps. We can go for walks, go to the park, let the kids run outside, what a blessing! Trinity turned 2 this week, and Esther will be one next month, and no we are not pregnant yet. Yes we still want a lot of children! It has been kind of nice for my body to have a little break and I'm sure it's been nice for Tom too(I'm a little emotional, to say the least, when I'm pregnant). Hmmm... what else, hearts a good, God has been sifting through a lot but it is only making me stronger and causing me to Trust Him and love Him even more. So that's the quick version of what is going on and here's some pics, was trying to post more but having issues, oh well her ya go!

Say Momma

2010-02-06T16:44:00.002-05:00

Here's Esther after her bath, she was saying Momma until I started recording. As you can hear in the back the kids are still taking there bath while Daddy is making music!

Hello again!

2010-02-06T15:53:00.004-05:00

The Lord has been providing so much for us! Since we moved here we've had our fridge and cupboards full which has been such a major blessing. I've been wanting some things for our kitchen like matching plates and some extra utensils and the Lord provided that this last month, this sounds little but this was huge to me and really made my heart happy! We are learning "the big system" as we call it. Coming from a small House of Prayer to a big House of Prayer has been an adjustment and it has taken some time to learn how they do things here but we are getting use to it and we are enjoying it! Tom is working in the media department now. He is really liking this, he works 36 hours there and then 12 hours he is praying in the prayer room. He also has been waking up early in the mornings to pray before he goes to work in the Media Department. I have secretly peeked in on him a couple times and I love seeing my Hubby get in the word, praying and being an excellent one! Since I see him praying at home and not only at the prayer room it provokes me to have my quiet time with the Lord also. I've been really enjoying sitting in silence before the Lord, this has been keeping my heart alive these days! I meet with a group once a week and we pray/sit in silence for an hour together and it is my favorite day of the week. I also have been meeting with other Mom's once a week which is another one of my favorite times. We encourage one another, talk and laugh and it is so good for my heart! Tom has been staying home with the children so that I can attend some of the nightly services as well as be in the prayer room which has been very refreshing. So there's our quick update, have to get back to the little ones! Here's some pics for you. Bless you all ~Hilary

building a family altar

2009-12-17T08:06:00.002-05:00

I know it has been a while since I've blogged it up! This is what has been on my heart lately is building a family altar. Before we moved out to KC, MO there was a day where we knew we needed to seek the Lord for some answers on what this new season was going to look like. So Tom got his guitar out started worshipping, I gave the kids there bibles, Trinity was dancing and Samuel was sitting next to Tom. Then Samuel kept pointing at the bible like he wanted us to read something. We look and it is Genesis 35:1 Then God said to Jacob, "Arise, go up to Bethel and dwell there; and make an altar there to God, who appeared to you when you fled from the face of Esau your brother." Gen 35:2 And Jacob said to his household and to all who were with him, "Put away the foreign gods that are among you, purify yourselves, and change your garments. Gen 35:3 "Then let us arise and go up to Bethel; and I will make an altar there to God, who answered me in the day of my distress and has been with me in the way which I have gone.

I love this because He says to go there, dwell there, make an altar. Bethel was a place where Jacob had encountered the Lord, for us KC is a place where we had encounters with the Lord. Then it says in vs. 3 he tells his household to arise and go to Bethel. It was so clear to us that the Lord was saying go to KC, dwell there, and make a family altar. So we are here, we are dwelling, now to build a family altar. So I am pondering what does that mean, what does a family altar look like etc. Some things I've come up with this morning is an altar is a place of communion, it is a place to bring gifts of worship and sacrifice, it is a common place to meet with God. That out of a heart of thanksgiving we build and altar and worship God. I was looking in the Bible at some of the men that built altars. First there is Noah, Moses, and Jacob. I feel like Noah represents grace, Moses the law, and Jacob is a wrestler and represents prayer.

So this is just the beginning of my study on this but babies are crying and it is time to start the day, just needed to share some thoughts, we will update ya soon. Bless you all!
~Hilary

Made it to KC!

2009-11-15T14:55:00.002-05:00

Real quick update! We made it to KC safely, we signed a year lease to rent a house here, Tom and I start staff tomorrow! It has been amazing to be back in Kansas City, MO. I really love it here! When we arrived we were welcomed by so many friends, just felt really blessed. People bringing over meals, gifts, money, and love! Just what I needed was some love : )

So the house is cute just feels like it is taking forever to get through all these boxes and to make it really our home. Also had to get use to killing spiders, ewww, I didn't realize that was such a fear of mine but I'm getting over it! Still trying to get in a groove with the kids and with house cleaning. I've heard it takes a year to get into the groove of things after having a baby. Well it's been 6 months so I have another 6 months to go I guess.

Been enjoying going to the prayer room again. It is so good to be where the Lord first encountered my heart and where he healed my heart of so many issues. Feels good to just sit and cry with Him, love the sweetness and tenderness I'm feeling these days. God is pouring out His Spirit at IHOP in an unusual way right now. Many people have been healed both physically and emotionally. Several ears were opened up, a lady with scoliosis was healed, and a tumor disappeared! I went to the service the other night and saw many healed and touched. I wasn't healed of anything but I did feel His sweet presence and felt His love for me. They've been having nightly meetings for 3 nights now, you should check it out for free this whole week every night from 6-midnight at www.ihop.org

ok that was suppose to be quick but just was enjoying writing today, may the Lord bless you all abundantly! Much love from the Lacy family!
~Hilary

On the road again!

2009-10-27T08:17:00.001-04:00

We are leaving this morning! It's been a while since I've blogged but just wanted to give a quick update. We packed up the truck and cleaned the house yesterday and we are all set. Thank you all for your help, we were really blessed to have so many people that helped and got it done a lot faster, thanks! We will be driving today to Cookeville, TN and staying with our friends parents. Then tomorrow we will drive to St. Louis, MO to visit and stay with some dear friends, which will be refreshing! Then we will land in KC on Thursday. We do not know where we are living yet but God knows! We will be staying with our friends (yay Pastor Chris!) in KC for 5 days and then we will stay with some more dear friends for another 5 days and hopefully by then we will find a home! Please pray for grace as we drive, Tom will be driving Kirk's van and trailer and I will be driving the car with 2 toddlers and a nursing babe. Also please pray for grace on the children as we stay at other peoples' houses and grace for this transition. We love all of you who are staying and all of you we will be seeing soon, thank you all for your prayers, may the Lord bless you!
~Hilary

So much on my mind

2009-09-14T21:47:00.003-04:00

Have so many thoughts these days and don't really know where to start or what to say. We are leaving a place we've grown to love, a place we've sown in the Spirit, a place where we started our family, and a place where we've made so many friends. So we are sad but excited all in one. We are headed back to Kansas City, MO another place where we've sown to the spirit and have many loved ones as well. Excited to start fresh again. But still not understanding all of God's ways right now. So things have been crazy with cleaning, touching up the house, getting rid of stuff and packing all on top of the usual tasks of holding babies, chasing babies, changing diapers, doing laundry, making meals, loving on my Hubby, and spending time with the Lord. So if you can't tell I'm kind of feeling all over the place but know that God is good, He has a plan and that we are going to make it through this! So Tom is leaving on Wednesday for a week to go to Kansas City, Mo. IHOP-KC is having a special celebration for there 10 year anniversary so a couple vans full of people are going out. I'm really excited about it, I will be watching it online. Also Tom will be looking for a house for us. So there's kind of an update for ya, maybe next time it will be better written and not all over the place, thanks for bearing with me. Bless you all! ~Hilary

Moving to KC, MO!

2009-09-03T21:43:00.000-04:00

Dear friends and family,

We wanted to let you all know that we are moving back to Kansas City, MO. Here's more info from Tom:

About a week ago ZHOP-Charlotte announced the completion of it's assignment here, in South Carolina. There is still a strong prayer community intact here that will continue to grow and thrive in the grace of God just not under the banner of ZHOP. Whatever ZHOP built in the Spirit will remain, and whatever was born of the flesh will die and needs to die. God says 'well done.' (BBQ term)

Our family (of five now) will be moving in SHORT ORDER back to IHOP-KC to submit to the leadership there and serve as full time staff. We are doing this in one of our WEAKEST SEASONS FINANCIALLY. We believe God would have us transition to KC IN STRENGTH. We are ON A COURSE TO RAISE $7,500.00 to do this comfortably with our children.

WAYS YOU CAN HELP:

#1 Way) We need Your Money
#2 Way) We need Your Prayers for Strength in Transition
#3 Way) No kidding We need your Money
#4 Way) If you reside in KC, you can be on the look out for affordable 3 bedroom homes to rent $750-$1100/mo.
#5 Way) If you reside in a KC home, you can provide an interim place for us to stay while we look for home, or anything you can offer that you know would help us.

Thank you for understanding this point blank and frank email and for prayerfully replying and acting fast.

Testimony!

2009-08-19T20:44:00.002-04:00

We have a gathering at our house every Tuesday night and we get together and worship, hear some one's testimony and have a meal together. Each week we choose someones name out of a bowl to see who speaks next week so my name got picked this week and I got to share my testimony. Thought I would share it with all of you too!
Grew up in a non Christian home didn't go to church, parents were divorced was I was 2. Then fast forward I was about 21 I wasn't into drugs or alcohol was pretty much a "good girl" trying to please everyone but had been seeking for love, just really wounded and hurt and ended up in a bad relationship with a guy. He was a gambler and into drinking and drugs. I was a waitress and worked and worked to give him money. Took out loans for him etc. He would say he was going to pay me back and then didn't. Each time I believed that he would, I thought he was going to change. I really believed I was going to get love in return for doing this for him. I was super deceived at the time, not knowing who I was or what I deserved or that I was even loved. I just was super hurt by people and it was getting to the point where I couldn't trust anyone. It was getting pretty bad and I was really depressed. Then I thought most of my Christian friends are always happy oh I should go to church then. Searched for churches then found this church and went to it for a while. Just went by myself and sat in the back then left real fast because I was so afraid to talk to people and that I would get hurt. One day I filled out this connection card and I checked the box that said I have questions and would like someone to call me. So the pastor called me and we started meeting weekly and I had my list of questions for him about what was being taught and about the bible. Finally one day(Valentine's Day) when I met with my pastor I gave my heart to the Lord!(Bless you Pastor Chris!) At that time I was still in this bad relationship I would have weekly meetings with one of our pastors and he would coach me through how to leave this guy. Finally left him and from there started a process of healing with the Lord. About a year later I started getting hungry for the Lord and for His word, the word was coming alive. I would stay up late at night and read the bible. I had a white board of all my friends and family's prayer requests and would just prayer over each person. Started enjoying being around people making real friendships which I was scared about before. They started having prayer meetings at our church where we were learning prophecy and learning about the Holy Spirit. During this same time is when I met Tom, he was the leader of my small group. Tom and I started meeting and going out for coffee and just reading the bible and going after John 15:1-5 all about abiding. Then I found out about IHOP and the One thing conference and raised money to go. I had never been around so many young people loving the Lord and had never experienced this kind of worship. At the conference I decided I needed to do an internship and I felt like if I didn't go right then, then I probably never would. So raised money and with in a week went to do the internship, moved and Tom and I were together at that time and did a long distance relationship for 8 months. There I grew so much, living in community, learned how to pray, first time learning about end times and stuff but the big thing was I learned that God really loves me actually He likes me. That it's not about petitions it's about a friendship a relationship. Found out who I am in Him, that I am beautiful in His sight, that I am lovely and His delight. All this was new to me, I always longed for an identity and finally found one in Him. My prayers were being answered one after another with provision and heart issues. He did all this because He loves me and that's it He love us guys! I mean it's not just some saying He really does. I finally came to that place of being able to receive His love and once I received His love I was able to pour out my love whole heartedly. And now this is the kind of life I am called to live is be a radical lover of God, my husband is and we are raising are kids to be radical lovers of God. I challenge you to be one too! I pray that He will strengthen you with His might, that He would root you and ground you in His love and that you would truly know the depths of His love for you! In Jesus name, Amen!
~Hilary

Stories

2009-08-18T11:22:00.003-04:00

Sorry it's been a while trying to figure out how to keep this blog up, hope I still have some readers out there! Thought I'd share some stories about what it is like being a Mom with 3 under 3yrs. old. Today for instance I needed to wash Samuel and Trinity's blankets. They both have become very attached to them lately and I was making them keep the blankets in there bed but with Trinity teething this week I let her take it around the house for comfort but in doing this it has gotten super dirty. So I put them in the wash and for 45 min she through a fit, no kidding. Crocodile tears, red face, lots of screaming and crying. I tried to give her another blanket but didn't work. During all this Samuel is running around screaming "Cadia Cadia" that is what he calls her. And Esther was sleeping and got woken up by all this. We got through it though and she has a clean blanket now, yay. The other day was a little crazy I tried to go the store with all 3 alone. So I put Esther in this snugly carrier thingy on me, put Trinity in the front of the cart and made Samuel sit in the cart. It actually went pretty well the only thing that was hard was when Samuel had to pee twice and I had to lift him out while holding Esther. People were giving me some looks one lady asked me if I was babysitting. I said no these are all mine, she said I pity you. Didn't know what to say but Oh Thanks!

Well I know it does sound crazy but there has been a special grace with having 3, I'm still trying to figure out how to organize my time though. I want to get up early and pray but sometimes the baby wakes up early too so I pray with her but I really enjoy just me and God time! Also trying to figure out when to cook, clean and do laundry, I mean I do it when the kids are pretty much running around at my feet but then something usually comes up like a diaper needing changed, or nursing, or spit up. But in all this I'm feeling the Lord's delight over me. I've been finding myself chuckling when something crazy happens or one of the kids go bazurk and I just say oh Lord you delight in me and it feels like He is smiling over me, love it! Well there ya go, have a blessed day!
~Hilary

Boys playing drums!

2009-08-05T23:00:00.002-04:00

The Lord is good!

2009-07-17T08:21:00.003-04:00

The sun is shining through the window and everyone is still sound asleep! I guess the Lord wanted to kiss me today! I love it when I can just wake up on my own and not to someone crying, it changes my whole mood for the day. Well things are going well, thank you for all your prayers! We are sad to see friends go and move on but are excited to see what the Lord has for us in this next season. We feel like this is what He is saying, Psalm 37:3 Trust in the LORD, and do good; Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. The Lord is sooo good! This time of sifting from the Lord has been so good because it has brought us closer to Him and has brought Tom and I closer. Things are going well with all the little ones. They bring me so much joy! We are so blessed to have 3 healthy babes! So, just learning how to juggle it all hubby, kids, cleaning, cooking, lifestyle of prayer and all with a joyful heart. We will post more pics soon! Blessings!
~Hilary

Lots of change

2009-07-08T11:02:00.003-04:00

Yep it has been two months since I've blogged so much to say! We've had many visitors since Esther was born which has been nice. Our spiritual Momma Faith came to visit, then my Mom, then my dear friend Kathrine, now my Dad and bro will be here today! We have been adjusting to having 3 children just great, I've been surprised at the amount of grace the Lord has given us during this time. So that's the short family update now what is really on my heart...

There's lots of change going on here and I don't quite know how I feel about it or what to say...We just found out that the Senior leaders at ZHOP and three other families are called to go back to IHOP in Kansas City. So we are processing this all since this is a huge change for our family and this community. These are people that we love dearly and have grown in friendship together so it is very hard to see them go. We are giving ourselves two weeks to just let all this settle in our hearts and to get through all the emotion of it. The Lord has really been sifting our hearts and asking us what did we really come out here for? Man's vision or God's vision. So where do we go from here? We pray! We will keep you posted, bless you all!
~Hilary

Esther Gloria Lacy has arrived!

2009-05-11T12:28:00.003-04:00

Happy Mother's Day to me! Esther Gloria Lacy was born on May 10th at 3:18am. She's such a beautiful gift from the Lord. Saturday night was like every other night that week having contractions 10 min. apart while I'm trying to sleep but then it changed around midnight and started getting more painful and 5 minutes apart. Tom was in the garage working on a Mother's day gift for me so I decided to put on some worship music and get on the birthing ball. It was an amazing time with the Lord just worhsipping, going through the contractions and really feeling His presence and love towards me. Then it started getting pretty painful and intense real fast. We got our friend Christiane to come over and stay with the kids then we headed off to the hospital. Arrived at 2:45am and had her at 3:18am. When I showed up I was ready to push, they wheeled me into the delivery room and it was super fast from there. Pushed three times and the little beauty was born! Her and I are both doing well, this has been the easiest birth for me so far and we've had an amazing experience at the hospital too. The Lord has really shown His kindness and love towards our family, I feel so loved and blessed!

As many of you know, most of my pregnancy we felt like we were having a boy and all we had was a boys name. Then on Saturday a friend in our community shared a dream he had with us. In the dream we were at ZHOP, Tom and I were up at the altar, I was laying on my back still pregnant and the Glory of the Lord was in the room. Then he saw a star and a cloud, that was pretty much the dream, he felt like the dream was about our baby. Then that same night Tom was talking with a friend about if we were to have a girl what we would name her and he said he was thinking of Hadassah, which is Esther's Hebrew name in the bible. Then our friend said Esther means star. Right while Tom was having this conversation I was upstairs having contractions and asking the Lord about a girls name and the only name that came to me was Esther. Then right as we are leaving to go to the hospital we walk out to our car and the same friend that had the dream about us was driving by and honked his horn(this was at 2am). It was a little confirmation to us from the Lord that we were probably having a girl and her name should be Esther. Gloria means glory so that is why we chose that for her middle name. It was amazing that He gave us a name right at the last moment. So there's our story. Thank you all for your love and prayers!
~Tom and Hilary

Happy Saturday!

2009-05-09T07:52:00.004-04:00

Enjoying waking up to the sunshine this morning and hearing Samuel singing through the monitor. Thinking of how thankful I am to have Thomas Lacy as my Hubby! He surprised me yesterday and took half the day off so I could rest and we could have some family time. The night before I was up all night with contractions thinking that was going to be the night the baby was coming and then all of a sudden the contractions stopped. So yesterday I was pretty bummed and he said I looked a little flustered as I continued to change diapers and do laundry and he said he just wanted to bless me by coming home early! That made my day! He also went and got me chocolate without me even asking!

So as many of you know it is a week away from my due date and since I tend to go early and have been having intense contractions I thought the baby would be here by now. I'm still 39 weeks but I feel overdue since my heart was kinda set on it being early. I'm sure some of you other Mom's can relate. So I've been pretty moody and frustrated this week but today I woke up just really feeling the peace of the Lord and just realized that I need to just enjoy this waiting time and to rest, trust and hope in the Lord during this process. The baby will come sooner or later I just have to let go and let God do it! So I'm giving it to the Lord again today! I'm just really excited to see who is inside me and for our season to change as a family once again. Samuel seems excited and kisses and prays for the baby every night but I'm still not sure if Trinity quite understands. We went to bring a meal to a couple who just had a baby the other night and Trinity got so excited when she saw little Anna, so I'm hoping that will be the same with baby #3. I guess I had much to say today, just wanted to give you all an update. Blessing to you all! ~Hilary

Mystery baby

2009-04-28T08:25:00.002-04:00

This is amazing I woke up before the kids and got ready and they are still sleeping, 8:30 is sleeping in for them so this is a kiss from the Lord! So I thought I'd write a little. Was up last night not able to sleep due to contractions, so of course I started getting all excited because with the past births I didn't have contractions until the day of going into labor. So I was up for about 3 hours then they were done, bummer! This baby sure is a mystery to me. They've given us 3 due dates because they were unsure since I was still nursing Trinity when I found out I was pregnant. So the first two have passed and the 3rd due date is May 15th which I thought it would be easy to tell myself that's when the baby is coming but deep down inside I was hoping it to be earlier. I know that date is only 19 days away but I'm feeling ready! For me it is just hard cause I like to plan ahead and make sure everything is ready, got enough food for the kids while we are in the hospital, laundry is done, house is clean etc. So not knowing is really making me trust in the Lord and lean on Him. Ok I had lots more to say but Trinity is crying now. I'm getting excited and we will keep you posted when this mystery baby comes! Bless you all!
~Hilary

He loves the sound of my voice!

2009-04-19T21:04:00.003-04:00

I've been desiring more of the Lord these days. Realizing I can't do anything with out Him. I was telling Samuel the other day that he can talk to the Lord whenever he wants to. Then later I thought wow why don't I do that anymore. Why don't I just talk to the Lord whenever I want to. He loves the sound of my voice, so why don't I just let Him hear my voice. I was feeling sad tonight as Tom was leaving for a meeting and I was feeling kind of alone. He said well what are you going to do while I'm gone, I said I don't know there's not much I can do. He said why don't you write the word in your journal. So that's what I've been doing and I can feel my heart coming alive again. Finally I talked with the Lord and journaled which I haven't done in a long time. I just have been so busy with my day in and day out stuff, with changing diapers, cleaning, cooking, preparing for this baby to come etc. In all of that my heart has been hurting because I haven't been communing with Him or even coming to Him with my hurt or day to day needs. So all that to say I feel a little lighter tonight since I finally brought my burdens to the Lord instead of trying to keep it all together in my own strength. The Lord is my strength, He loves me, He's the best listener and He loves the sound of my voice! Thank you Lord for healing my heart tonight just by listening, you are so good and kind to me! I pray you all will draw near to the Lord tonight and feel His love towards you!
~ Hilary

2009-04-14T20:56:00.003-04:00

Sorry ya'll haven't been in the mood to write these days. So here goes... not much new here just getting ready for #3 to come. Painted a dresser for the new baby, moved the bassinett into our room, went through all the newborn clothes, packed my bag for the hospital. Getting excited that's for sure! We are switching over to cloth diapers and they should be shipped to us this week. We figure we will have 3 in diapers and more down the road so might as well switch now and save money. We were blessed with almost all the money to get started on cloth diapers so I'm very thankful for that! Have about a month to go now, might be sooner though because I am HUGE! Praying for more grace and strength on my body and on my heart! Didn't realize it would be this hard running after 2 plus dealing with their emotions and mine at the same time. I have a new respect for Mom's that's for sure. Just asking for the Lord to show me more of Him each day because that is the only way I can make it through. Tom is doing good and I'm amazed how gracious he has been to me with all my moodiness and drama these days. I am blessed among women! Here's some pics for ya from Easter. We had a family breakfast, then Tom did his normal 12-6 shift so I brought the kids to the prayer room after nap time. After they couldn't keep quiet in the prayer room we went to the Mom's room so they could play, here's some pics of that. Be blessed this week! Love Hilary

Sweet small whispers

2009-04-02T13:44:00.005-04:00

The Lord is speaking to me in sweet small whispers today, I love it when He does this. One thing was I turned on the Prayer room in Kansas City and they were singing this "He's brought me to the wilderness where I will learn to sing, He lets me know my barrenness so I will learn to lean... He's so kind to me! I'm so convinced that you are good God!" I heard this and tears came a flooding down. It is so good sometimes to actually feel ya know, I usually stuff it all down but these days it is all coming to the surface which is so good and it is the only way that the Lord will bring healing in our hearts. So hearing this for me was just confirmation that I am in the right place, even though I feel like this is so hard and sometimes I feel like I'm at the end of my rope, He says that it is His doing bringing me to this place of the wilderness and barrenness in the spirit. It is so I will learn to sing in the midst of pain and hard times and so I will learn to go to Him and lean on Him instead of all the other things of this world. He does this in His kindness towards me! So that's whats on my heart today! On another note, it was Trinity's 1st Birthday yesterday! We just had a couple people over and had pizza, cake and opened presents. She loved the cake. Thought I'd put some pics up of our beautiful girl! Bless you all today! ~Hilary

Yummy carrot cake!

Opening presents

Playing with our friend Christiane
(Tom got her the cute outfit and clip in Hawaii)

Quick update

2009-03-23T10:38:00.002-04:00

Well it has been a while once again, oops! I was doing so good about keeping ya'll up to date but haven't had the computer lately so I've been out of the loop a little. Tom's computer crashed so he uses mine and by the time he comes home I am too wiped out to communicate. Tom just went to get his haircut, Trinity is taking a nap and Samuel is having quiet time, and here I am! I think the last time I wrote Tom was just coming home from Hawaii. He had a blessed trip and thank you all for your gifts towards his trip. I really have to get him to blog about it, God did a lot! The same night he came home my good friend Kathrine from KC came to visit for a week. That was so wonderful! We had lots of fun just being together, praying together, her helping me with the kids and such. I realized that it is so nice to have those friends that you can just pick up where you left off, the ones that will just love you in your weakness and pray for you when you are down and help in any way. That is Kathrine for me...she is just great! Just having her here brought me back to the place of prayer and just calling on His name more, it was very refreshing. Now we are trying to get back into the swing of things. I'm trying to get ready for this little bundle to come. Since they gave us so many due dates I feel like I just have no clue when the baby is coming, huge range between early April and middle May so there ya go. I keep saying the baby will come when it is time and hopefully we will have everything ready for the little one. All we need is a crib, cloth diapers, and a triple stroller. Which really we will have the baby in a bassinet for a little while and the triple stroller isn't totally needed it's just for convenience so we really just need diapers. One of my friends is throwing me a small shower on Wed. so that is exciting and is a huge blessing from the Lord because I didn't think I was going to have a shower at all this time around. The Kids are doing great Trinity will be a year on April 1st and is almost walking. Samuel is growing and learning so much every day, he's singing right now! They both carry so much joy and bless me so much. Even though there are hard days with being super prego and trying to run after them I still am so thankful the Lord has given them to us and that we get to be play a part in raising the next generation. Ok I better run now, thanks for listening and bless you all!
~Hilary

Learning to lean on my Beloved

2009-03-05T15:20:00.002-05:00

Well it has almost been two weeks since Tom's been gone and there has been some hard times but good ones too! I've realized that I tend to lean too much on Tom instead of leaning on the Lord and trusting in Him and in His strength. The Lord has been showing me who I am again, teaching me to call on Him in every circumstance and this has been so good for me to learn again and has been very refreshing for my heart. I feel very loved by the Lord and by others these past 2 weeks.

Sometimes it is easy to feel pretty much hidden as a Mom and as one married to the most joyful, outgoing and loveable guy! So I was sort of thinking maybe people wouldn't think about me or check on me while Tom was gone but I was wrong. I've been so blessed by this community we live in! So many have come to visit and keep me company, some have made meals, some have watched my kids so I can get groceries or just have a break, many have called to check on me and to pray when the kids were sick. I've just been blown away at His love for me through all you wonderful ones out there, thank you and may you all be blessed by the Lord today!
~Hilary

Busy week

2009-02-21T19:42:00.003-05:00

Well, had a very eventful week or two. Celebrated Hubby's B-day (thank you everyone for blessing him!) Celebrated our Anniversary, was blessed with roses and and an amazing massage at a beautiful salon and then had quality one on one time with Tom. I felt so pampered and so loved by Tom and the Lord! Now finishing up the last minute packing for Tom. Yep he leaves tomorrow for Hawaii for 14 days. So we've been trying to prepare Samuel for this, telling him Daddy is going on an airplane to Hawaii but that we can talk to him on the phone and see him on the computer(yay for skype). Samuel says "da da go hi-he" it is so cute. So I'm gonna try and keep busy. Going to my bro's in Atlanta for 4 days then when I come back I'm going to work on some projects. Tom got me some paint so I'm going to see how much energy I have but we have paint for our bathroom, our bedroom and nursery. Also going to paint a dresser for baby # 3. Glad I'm nesting it will make these 2 weeks easier I hope. I am sad for Tom to be away for so long but I am excited to see what the Lord will do in both of our hearts. I really feel like the Lord is drawing us closer to Him and pushing us into Him again. It's funny cause before we were married we had a long distance relationship for 8 months and it made us seek the Lord in a new way. So this should be a good 2 weeks of seeking the Lord again. Anyways, there's my heart for ya, looking forward to spending some extra time with the Lord while Tom's gone but also looking forward to looking at Hawaii pics when he gets back. Pray for Tom and our director as they go and please pray for grace to be on the kids and I. Blessings on you all!
~Hilary

Video of kiddos

2009-02-17T10:16:00.001-05:00

Happy Salvation day to me!

2009-02-14T15:12:00.002-05:00

Happy Valentine's day to you all! I'm blessing the Lord for this day, I was saved on this day years ago. I remember it very clearly searching and searching for love and was not finding it anywhere. Was very hurt and very unhappy. I remember thinking all my Christian friends seem to be so happy, guess I better go to church like they do. So I found a church started going to it and then became interested in the word. I had no one to ask questions about the word so I set up meetings with one of our pastors at our church and we would meet and I would bring my list of questions about the bible to him. My heart was beginning to come alive during these meetings and I would go home sit on my bed, read and search for more truth. Then on Valentine's day I went in for another meeting with my pastor and he said it sounds like your ready do you want to ask Jesus into your heart? I said Yes! We prayed together and then went and announced it to everyone that happened to be in the church building that day. A big thanks to you Pastor Chris for taking the time and answering all my questions and for being patient with me and for leading me to the Lord!

Today I am thanking the Lord for His kindness towards me! What a journey it has been. From that day I started seeking the Lord more and more. Learned I could talk to Him whenever I wanted to. My dream was to be able to pray all day, I didn't think it ever would be possible. As all you know it is! The Lord is so good to me, he saved me and set me free, he's healed me in so many ways and even on my bad days He still loves me. Another dream of mine was to be married with kids. It is all I ever wanted. I was praying for "the one" and I would always say I wanted 10 children. Looks like God is answering prayer! I definitely met the love of my life, we are going on 3 yrs married this Wednesday, so exciting. Looks like God is giving me those children I asked for and He's doing it fast. So all this to say....He is good and I am blessed. Be blessed today ya'll
~Hilary

Thankful heart!

2009-02-07T14:11:00.003-05:00

Hello there, for some reason I haven't had much to write about lately so here goes. Today I am very thankful! I'm thankful for the community we live in and the friends we have even if we don't talk all the time our hearts are knit in prayer which I love! I'm thankful that the Lord is good all the time. I am thankful for the husband and children He has given me. Most of all I am thankful He saved my soul! I love the Lord my God!
Here's some random pics, not the best but the cute kids are in them so here ya go. Have a blessed Saturday! ~Hilary

Here's Samuel having a coffee(steamed milk)

Trinity can reach the piano now, she is growin up!

Laughing and crawling

Sweet boy, he put the hat this way.

Motherhood thoughts

2009-01-24T13:36:00.003-05:00

Thinking a lot about motherhood these days. Of course that makes sense since that is my life! The other day I was chatting with Tom telling him how the babes were crawling all over me and la la laing (singing) and so on. He said "isn't that what you thought motherhood would be like?" Then it hit me, yep I did. I thought for the most part it would be pretty easy lots of fun, just cuddling, laughing and playing. What I am learning now is it is so much more than that, it is teaching, disciplining, cleaning, loving, and praying. I'm realizing we Mom's are stronger than we think and have a lot more inside than others know. Sometimes I struggle with not being able to go to the prayer room as much or not being able to go to all the amazing meetings where Holy Spirit shows up. But today I am very thankful for the kind of life I live. I am blessed to stay at home with my little ones and to pour into them. I am still an intercessor and prayer warrior. Just more of a hidden one! My house is literally a House of Prayer. So just learning to really live a lifestyle of prayer that no matter what I am doing that I am praising God while doing it, finding Him in it, and talking to Him! Today we had a family devotional before Tom went off to the prayer room. He was singing and playing the guitar and I was running around trying to finish up cleaning, get my coffee and bible so I could sit and join them. I had a question about the coffee but felt bad for interrupting Tom while he was in worship. He said "don't be sorry this is how we should live, do our normal everyday stuff while communing with God at the same time." I liked that!

I'm also finally taking some one's advice they gave me when I first had Samuel. It was to find a rhythm in being a Mom and that the rhythm will always be changing but embrace the rhythm the Lord has for you in each season. So I just started a new rhythm since Tom's schedule changed. It is getting up before everyone else does, get ready and get with the Lord. It is only an hour some days less if I accidentally sleep in. I've just found that if I don't do this I am a grump and my heart isn't as alive. I've also been reading through the Old Testament which has been lots of fun for me. I feel like I am getting addicted to the Lord again and that a fresh hunger is coming. I know there is so much more to say because it has been a while but I think this is long enough and pray you are all blessed this weekend!
~Hilary

Bath Time fun!

2009-01-12T20:06:00.002-05:00

Here's some pics from bath time tonight!

Look how much they look alike.

He splashed her and thought that was so funny

For some reason our children love ducks
(hmm pastor Chris)

What a Beauty!

Learning to live with out offense!

2009-01-05T20:49:00.003-05:00

It's a new day and a new year! I'm happy for that! So on New Years Eve I went to bed my usual time at 10 and fireworks went on and on till 4am. Yep we live in the South! So I was getting very mad, thinking all these things like..."don't these people have kids and need to sleep?" "these people are so disrespectful, I'm pregnant and need to sleep" and on and on went my complaining. I was so angry, it was not a pretty sight. I rolled over and told Tom how angry I was he said "that's not good." So I lay there talking with the Lord about it why I was so angry, and how I don't even know these people and I am so offended at them. How can I be so angry over such a small thing. Then I felt the Lord say"Hilary I am taking offense and anger out of your heart this year" I thought oh great. Then more fireworks went off, I couldn't help but laugh and laugh it was like something broke off of me. It was a great way to start the New Year off with the Lord.

So far little challenges have happened like the kid's waking up early from there naps which makes it so I don't get much alone time. Not being able to sleep at night which makes the next day hard. Finances not coming in like they were suppose to on certain dates. Etc. So when these things have happened this week instead of getting angry at the circumstances I've been coming to the Lord again (it has been a while) and I've asked Him to take my anger and fill me with His love. It has been hard cause I have to re-train myself that instead of turning to anger I have to turn to Him. It has been worth it though! I feel break through in my heart and that's what I've been needing. Thank you Lord!

Usually when I am offended at someone or at a circumstance it really just means I am offended at the Lord. So I found this today Acts 24:16 "This being so, I myself always strive to have a conscience without offense toward God and men." What a great prayer, Lord let us have a conscience without offense toward you and toward men. Amen!

Love you all ~ Hilary

Hello again!

2008-12-19T16:46:00.003-05:00

Well ya'll it has been a while since I've talked deep with ya and actually I don't really have anything deep to say this time either but I've been enjoying the Lord, my hubby and children. Learning to live in the moment and trust the Lord in all things. I'm really excited to see my family tomorrow. My Dad, brother, sister-in-law or in- love as some say, and niece are all coming to our house! They will be here for two days and I am ecstatic! Also excited for Christmas with our little (well growing) family. Then off to another blessed New Year! Well, gotta run Samuel needs my attention. Had to post another video for ya, here's our little joyful girl! Enjoy! Love ya'll ~Hilary

Tree decorating with the little ones

2008-12-13T13:13:00.003-05:00

It sure takes a long time to decorate the tree
once you have children plus they want to either
throw the ornaments or put them in their mouth.
I do have to say it sure was a joyful experience!
The tree looks pretty too PTL!

Bro and Sis playing

2008-12-06T20:38:00.001-05:00

They were having so much fun playing together in the kitchen, so cute!

Pics from our trip

2008-12-01T20:17:00.003-05:00

We went to Atlanta for Thanksgiving to see my Brother and his family, plus my Mom and her husband. It was a great time of relaxing, enjoying food and each other! Samuel turned 2 on Thanksgiving so we celebrated that also. Thought you would all enjoy some pic.'s, just realized they are pretty much just of the kids, enjoy!

So sweet... he fell asleep in the car on the way there

Samuel and his cousin Mattison playing outside

Kids in the hammock

Before

after... he ended up licking that thing clean

Bless you all, Hilary

Come to Me and I will give you rest!

2008-11-15T13:33:00.003-05:00

So today I've been feeling heavy spiritually. Feeling like I'm doing everything wrong and I'm just realizing I really need the Lord. Just wanting to cry about every little thing. For some crazy reason I keep trying to do things on my own or out of my own strength. Then I have an ah ha moment... yep that's right, I can't do anything without Him! Then I heard this being sang today and my heart was really encouraged! Matthew 11:28 "Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." So I'm gonna go rest in the Lord now, be blessed today!
~Hilary

Video from 5/01/08

2008-11-06T20:07:00.002-05:00

I love babies!

2008-10-30T20:57:00.003-04:00

So we had an interview yesterday with a midwife, we are praying about doing a home birth this time around but not too sure. So we didn't know how far along we were, so the midwife said she could check and see if there was a heart beat and there was! So after feeling around and hearing the heart beat she thinks we are 12 weeks pregnant! So we are probably due in May or June, which Trinity will be 13 months.
After hearing the heart beat I got so excited, just the thought of another baby brings me joy. There's been 2 new babies born into the community and a lot more to come! So today I got to take a meal over to one of the families that just had a baby, that is my favorite thing to do cause I get to hear the birth story and see the cute newborn etc. So there ya go, I just love babies, I guess it is a good thing I'm pregnant again! PTL!
~Hilary

Saturday Pictures

2008-10-25T09:43:00.002-04:00

Samuel @ James K. Polks house

Trinity multi-tasking

Samuel with Sister, She's thinking about touching him, he's wishing she wouldn't

Need fire on my heart!

2008-10-24T13:03:00.003-04:00

Well it's a cold rainy day here in the south! Reminds me of Seattle(miss all you seattleites-is that how you spell it?) So just thinking that drinking a Starbucks while being curled up next to a warm fire would be nice. Which brings me to my next point...I'm longing for fire on my heart again! Honestly I feel like every time I am pregnant I pull away from the Lord a little. I don't know if it's cause I'm tired so all I want to do is sleep or if it's my hormones or what. But I do know that I need Him for sure, I can't do this on my own. So just learning how to pray even when I don't feel like it and even when I don't feel Him! Today while I was feeding Trinity and Samuel was running laps around the house I felt my mind wandering all over the place. I had the KC web stream on and they were singing in the spirit and it just reminded me to engage my heart with the Lord even with craziness all around me. So I sang in the spirit and even though I didn't feel anything I knew something was shifting in my heart and things were changing in the spiritual atmosphere. So as I'm typing this I'm realizing that's the first step to having a fire on my heart again, sing and pray mysteries to God! Thanks for listening, be blessed today!

Christians... For Obama?

2008-10-18T08:17:00.002-04:00

Obama’s Abortion Extremism
by Robert George
Oct 14, 2008
Sen. Barack Obama’s views on life issues ranging from abortion to embryonic stem cell research mark him as not merely a pro-choice politician, but rather as the most extreme pro-abortion candidate to have ever run on a major party ticket.
Barack Obama is the most extreme pro-abortion candidate ever to seek the office of President of the United States. He is the most extreme pro-abortion member of the United States Senate. Indeed, he is the most extreme pro-abortion legislator ever to serve in either house of the United States Congress. Yet there are Catholics and Evangelicals-even self-identified pro-life Catholics and Evangelicals - who aggressively promote Obama’s candidacy and even declare him the preferred candidate from the pro-life point of view.
What is going on here?
I have examined the arguments advanced by Obama’s self-identified pro-life supporters, and they are spectacularly weak. It is nearly unfathomable to me that those advancing them can honestly believe what they are saying. But before proving my claims about Obama’s abortion extremism, let me explain why I have described Obama as ”pro-abortion” rather than ”pro-choice.”
According to the standard argument for the distinction between these labels,nobody is pro-abortion. Everybody would prefer a world without abortions. After all, what woman would deliberately get pregnant just to have an abortion? But given the world as it is, sometimes women find themselves with unplanned pregnancies at times in their lives when having a baby would present significant problems for them. So even if abortion is not medically required, it should be permitted, made as widely available as possible and, when necessary, paid for with taxpayers’ money.
The defect in this argument can easily be brought into focus if we shift to the moral question that vexed an earlier generation of Americans: slavery. Many people at the time of the American founding would have preferred a world without slavery but nonetheless opposed abolition. Such people - Thomas Jefferson was one - reasoned that, given the world as it was, with slavery woven into the fabric of society just as it had often been throughout history, the economic consequences of abolition for society as a whole and for owners of plantations and other businesses that relied on slave labor would be dire. Many people who argued in this way were not monsters but honest and sincere, albeit profoundly mistaken. Some (though not Jefferson) showed their personal opposition to slavery by declining to own slaves themselves or freeing slaves whom they had purchased or inherited. They certainly didn’t think anyone should be forced to own slaves. Still, they maintained that slavery should remain a legally permitted option and be given constitutional protection.
Would we describe such people, not as pro-slavery, but as ”pro-choice”? Of course we would not. It wouldn’t matter to us that they were ”personally opposed” to slavery, or that they wished that slavery were ”unnecessary,” or that they wouldn’t dream of forcing anyone to own slaves. We would hoot at the faux sophistication of a placard that said ”Against slavery? Don’t own one.” We would observe that the fundamental divide is between people who believe that law and public power should permit slavery, and those who think that owning slaves is an unjust choice that should be prohibited.
Just for the sake of argument, though, let us assume that there could be a morally meaningful distinction between being ”pro-abortion” and being ”pro-choice.” Who would qualify for the latter description? Barack Obama certainly would not. For, unlike his running mate Joe Biden, Obama does not think that abortion is a purely private choice that public authority should refrain from getting involved in. Now, Senator Biden is hardly pro-life. He believes that the killing of the unborn should be legally permitted and relatively unencumbered. But unlike Obama, at least Biden has sometimes opposed using taxpayer dollars to fund abortion, thereby leaving Americans free to choose not to implicate themselves in it. If we stretch things to create a meaningful category called ”pro-choice,” then Biden might be a plausible candidate for the label; at least on occasions when he respects your choice or mine not to facilitate deliberate feticide.
The same cannot be said for Barack Obama. For starters, he supports legislation that would repeal the Hyde Amendment, which protects pro-life citizens from having to pay for abortions that are not necessary to save the life of the mother and are not the result of rape or incest. The abortion industry laments that this longstanding federal law, according to the pro-abortion group NARAL, ”forces about half the women who would otherwise have abortions to carry unintended pregnancies to term and bear children against their wishes instead.” In other words, a whole lot of people who are alive today would have been exterminatedin utero were it not for the Hyde Amendment. Obama has promised to reverse the situation so that abortions that the industry complains are not happening (because the federal government is not subsidizing them) would happen. That is why people who profit from abortion love Obama even more than they do his running mate.
But this barely scratches the surface of Obama’s extremism. He has promised that ”the first thing I’d do as President is sign the Freedom of Choice Act” (known as FOCA). This proposed legislation would create a federally guaranteed ”fundamental right” to abortion through all nine months of pregnancy, including, as Cardinal Justin Rigali of Philadelphia has noted in a statement condemning the proposed Act, ”a right to abort a fully developed child in the final weeks for undefined ‘health’ reasons.” In essence, FOCA would abolish virtually every existing state and federal limitation on abortion, including parental consent and notification laws for minors, state and federal funding restrictions on abortion, and conscience protections for pro-life citizens working in the health-care industry-protections against being forced to participate in the practice of abortion or else lose their jobs. The pro-abortion National Organization for Women has proclaimed with approval that FOCA would ‘’sweep away hundreds of anti-abortion laws [and] policies.”
It gets worse. Obama, unlike even many ”pro-choice” legislators, opposed the ban on partial-birth abortions when he served in the Illinois legislature and condemned the Supreme Court decision that upheld legislation banning this heinous practice. He has referred to a baby conceived inadvertently by a young woman as a ”punishment” that she should not endure. He has stated that women’s equality requires access to abortion on demand. Appallingly, he wishes to strip federal funding from pro-life crisis pregnancy centers that provide alternatives to abortion for pregnant women in need. There is certainly nothing ”pro-choice” about that.
But it gets even worse. Senator Obama, despite the urging of pro-life members of his own party, has not endorsed or offered support for the Pregnant Women Support Act, the signature bill of Democrats for Life, meant to reduce abortions by providing assistance for women facing crisis pregnancies. In fact, Obama hasopposed key provisions of the Act, including providing coverage of unborn children in the State Children’s Health Insurance Program (S-CHIP), and informed consent for women about the effects of abortion and the gestational age of their child. This legislation would not make a single abortion illegal. It simply seeks to make it easier for pregnant women to make the choice not to abort their babies. Here is a concrete test of whether Obama is ”pro-choice” rather than pro-abortion. He flunked. Even Senator Edward Kennedy voted to include coverage of unborn children in S-CHIP. But Barack Obama stood resolutely with the most stalwart abortion advocates in opposing it.
It gets worse yet. In an act of breathtaking injustice which the Obama campaign lied about until critics produced documentary proof of what he had done, as an Illinois state senator Obama opposed legislation to protect children who are born alive, either as a result of an abortionist’s unsuccessful effort to kill them in the womb, or by the deliberate delivery of the baby prior to viability. This legislation would not have banned any abortions. Indeed, it included a specific provision ensuring that it did not affect abortion laws. (This is one of the points Obama and his campaign lied about until they were caught.) The federal version of the bill passed unanimously in the United States Senate, winning the support of such ardent advocates of legal abortion as John Kerry and Barbara Boxer. But Barack Obama opposed it and worked to defeat it. For him, a child marked for abortion gets no protection-even ordinary medical or comfort care-even if she is born alive and entirely separated from her mother. So Obama has favored protecting what is literally a form of infanticide.
You may be thinking, it can’t get worse than that. But it does.
For several years, Americans have been debating the use for biomedical research of embryos produced by in vitro fertilization (originally for reproductive purposes) but now left in a frozen condition in cryopreservation units. President Bush has restricted the use of federal funds for stem-cell research of the type that makes use of these embryos and destroys them in the process. I support the President’s restriction, but some legislators with excellent pro-life records, including John McCain, argue that the use of federal money should be permitted where the embryos are going to be discarded or die anyway as the result of the parents’ decision. Senator Obama, too, wants to lift the restriction.
But Obama would not stop there. He has co-sponsored a bill-strongly opposed by McCain-that would authorize the large-scale industrial production of human embryos for use in biomedical research in which they would be killed. In fact, the bill Obama co-sponsored would effectively require the killing of human beings in the embryonic stage that were produced by cloning. It would make it a federal crime for a woman to save an embryo by agreeing to have the tiny developing human being implanted in her womb so that he or she could be brought to term. This ”clone and kill” bill would, if enacted, bring something to America that has heretofore existed only in China-the equivalent of legally mandated abortion. In an audacious act of deceit, Obama and his co-sponsors misleadingly call this ananti-cloning bill. But it is nothing of the kind. What it bans is not cloning, but allowing the embryonic children produced by cloning to survive.
Can it get still worse? Yes.
Decent people of every persuasion hold out the increasingly realistic hope of resolving the moral issue surrounding embryonic stem-cell research by developing methods to produce the exact equivalent of embryonic stem cells without using (or producing) embryos. But when a bill was introduced in the United States Senate to put a modest amount of federal money into research to develop these methods, Barack Obama was one of the few senators who opposed it. From any rational vantage point, this is unconscionable. Why would someone not wish to find a method of producing the pluripotent cells scientists want that all Americans could enthusiastically endorse? Why create and kill human embryos when there are alternatives that do not require the taking of nascent human lives? It is as if Obama is opposed to stem-cell research unless it involves killing human embryos.
This ultimate manifestation of Obama’s extremism brings us back to the puzzle of his pro-life Catholic and Evangelical apologists.
They typically do not deny the facts I have reported. They could not; each one is a matter of public record. But despite Obama’s injustices against the most vulnerable human beings, and despite the extraordinary support he receives from the industry that profits from killing the unborn (which should be a good indicator of where he stands), some Obama supporters insist that he is the better candidate from the pro-life point of view.
They say that his economic and social policies would so diminish the demand for abortion that the overall number would actually go down-despite the federal subsidizing of abortion and the elimination of hundreds of pro-life laws. The way to save lots of unborn babies, they say, is to vote for the pro-abortion-oops! ”pro-choice”-candidate. They tell us not to worry that Obama opposes the Hyde Amendment, the Mexico City Policy (against funding abortion abroad), parental consent and notification laws, conscience protections, and the funding of alternatives to embryo-destructive research. They ask us to look past his support for Roe v. Wade, the Freedom of Choice Act, partial-birth abortion, and human cloning and embryo-killing. An Obama presidency, they insist, means less killing of the unborn.
This is delusional.
We know that the federal and state pro-life laws and policies that Obama has promised to sweep away (and that John McCain would protect) save thousands of lives every year. Studies conducted by Professor Michael New and other social scientists have removed any doubt. Often enough, the abortion lobby itself confirms the truth of what these scholars have determined. Tom McClusky has observed that Planned Parenthood’s own statistics show that in each of the seven states that have FOCA-type legislation on the books, ”abortion rates have increased while the national rate has decreased.” In Maryland, where a bill similar to the one favored by Obama was enacted in 1991, he notes that ”abortion rates have increased by 8 percent while the overall national abortion rate decreased by 9 percent.” No one is really surprised. After all, the message clearly conveyed by policies such as those Obama favors is that abortion is a legitimate solution to the problem of unwanted pregnancies - so clearly legitimate that taxpayers should be forced to pay for it.
But for a moment let’s suppose, against all the evidence, that Obama’s proposalswould reduce the number of abortions, even while subsidizing the killing with taxpayer dollars. Even so, many more unborn human beings would likely be killed under Obama than under McCain. A Congress controlled by strong Democratic majorities under Harry Reid and Nancy Pelosi would enact the bill authorizing the mass industrial production of human embryos by cloning for research in which they are killed. As president, Obama would sign it. The number of tiny humans created and killed under this legislation (assuming that an efficient human cloning technique is soon perfected) could dwarf the number of lives saved as a result of the reduced demand for abortion-even if we take a delusionally optimistic view of what that number would be.
Barack Obama and John McCain differ on many important issues about which reasonable people of goodwill, including pro-life Americans of every faith, disagree: how best to fight international terrorism, how to restore economic growth and prosperity, how to distribute the tax burden and reduce poverty, etc.
But on abortion and the industrial creation of embryos for destructive research, there is a profound difference of moral principle, not just prudence. These questions reveal the character and judgment of each man. Barack Obama is deeply committed to the belief that members of an entire class of human beings have no rights that others must respect. Across the spectrum of pro-life concerns for the unborn, he would deny these small and vulnerable members of the human family the basic protection of the laws. Over the next four to eight years, as many as five or even six U.S. Supreme Court justices could retire. Obama enthusiastically supports Roe v. Wade and would appoint judges who would protect that morally and constitutionally disastrous decision and even expand its scope. Indeed, in an interview in Glamour magazine, he made it clear that he would apply a litmus test for Supreme Court nominations: jurists who do not support Roe will not be considered for appointment by Obama. John McCain, by contrast, opposes Roe and would appoint judges likely to overturn it. This would not make abortion illegal, but it would return the issue to the forums of democratic deliberation, where pro-life Americans could engage in a fair debate to persuade fellow citizens that killing the unborn is no way to address the problems of pregnant women in need.
What kind of America do we want our beloved nation to be? Barack Obama’s America is one in which being human just isn’t enough to warrant care and protection. It is an America where the unborn may legitimately be killed without legal restriction, even by the grisly practice of partial-birth abortion. It is an America where a baby who survives abortion is not even entitled to comfort care as she dies on a stainless steel table or in a soiled linen bin. It is a nation in which some members of the human family are regarded as inferior and others superior in fundamental dignity and rights. In Obama’s America, public policy would make a mockery of the great constitutional principle of the equal protection of the law. In perhaps the most telling comment made by any candidate in either party in this election year, Senator Obama, when asked by Rick Warren when a baby gets human rights, replied: ”that question is above my pay grade.” It was a profoundly disingenuous answer: For even at a state senator’s pay grade, Obama presumed to answer that question with blind certainty. His unspoken answer then, as now, is chilling: human beings have no rights until infancy - and if they are unwanted survivors of attempted abortions, not even then.
In the end, the efforts of Obama’s apologists to depict their man as the true pro-life candidate that Catholics and Evangelicals may and even should vote for, doesn’t even amount to a nice try. Voting for the most extreme pro-abortion political candidate in American history is not the way to save unborn babies.
Robert P. George is McCormick Professor of Jurisprudence and Director of the James Madison Program in American Ideals and Institutions at Princeton University. He is a member of the President’s Council on Bioethics and previously served on the United States Commission on Civil Rights. He sits on the editorial board of Public Discourse.
The original article is here: http://thepublicdiscourse.com/viewarticle.php?selectedarticle=2008.10.14_George_Robert_Obama%27s%20Abortion%20Extremism_.xml
Copyright 2008 The Witherspoon Institute. All rights reserved.

Season Change!

2008-10-17T10:37:00.003-04:00

So a couple things happened yesterday that were a little upsetting and I realized... I have wounds! I've gotten a lot of healing from the Lord from the my past but I realized that I can get hurt on a weekly or even daily basis but I have to choose to forgive, choose to release others, and choose to let the Lord heal me instead of letting it all bottle up inside. So I honestly don't even know where the hurt is from right now all I know is that I have some wounds that need healing and that's my first step is being vulnerable and saying yep I have issues and Jesus I need you. So that is where I am at today, feeling really good and excited about what the Lord is doing and showing me. It feels good to be honest with the Lord and with myself instead of trying to hide stuff, He already knows anyways!
Today as I went on my morning walk there were these beautiful trees and the leaves were falling down and it was just was so pretty! I told Samuel "that's what happens when the season changes". I felt the Lord was saying "this is a season change in the spirit for you Hilary!"
~Hilary

B-day Update!

2008-10-15T07:50:00.003-04:00

So here's how my B-day went! I woke up went down stairs to get water and a snack before the kids woke up. Opened the fridge and there's a card a ton of fruit(this is the only thing that has been sounding good to eat) and a dessert from Tom. Once the kids got up I did the normal breakfast with them and one of our renters had left a gift for me on the counter, pretty dangly earrings. Later I go for my normal walk and there's another card from Tom, he's so sweet. Then we come back, a friend stops by and gives me a gift, a pretty bracelet she made. I take a nap. Later on I do the normal thing I do on Tuesdays get ready for our gathering we have here out our house. Another friend stops by and drops a gift off, a bracelet and a pretty decoration for the house. As I'm putting the kids down Tom is putting up Birthday decorations! I come down there's a ton of people here and they put me in "the princess chair" as we call it or others call it the "glory chair". All the women start singing over me it was beautiful. They pray and prophesy over me and tell me who I am in the Lord, which is so what I needed. Then we have a wonderful meal and a Delicious cake a friend made special for me! Opened more presents, I have amazing friends! Then the girls had bought a hair dye for me and colored my hair! I've been wanting some change so it is dark brown with red tint. We will post pics. I was blessed! So the celebrating doesn't stop we do Birthday weeks in our family! Today not sure what all we are doing but a friend wants to take me out for ice cream so that will be fun. There ya go!
~Hilary

Been a while

2008-10-13T20:34:00.002-04:00

Well don't know where to start....it has been a while. Honestly I haven't been too motivated to write. Just been tired and a little nausea's these days. I am feeling better today though so that is good! It's been a crazy week. Tom was gone for the weekend to DJ at a friend's wedding. There was actually a lot of grace to be alone with the kids the only hard part was sleeping alone. I really felt the Lord speaking to me about leaning on Him instead of leaning on my husband so much. I didn't realize how much I depend on Tom until he was gone. So I'm trying to refocus and remember the Lord is my strength. I had a baby shower here on Sunday for a friend, it was so much fun. Before I didn't enjoy lots and lots of people but now it blesses me to be with all these wonderful women. I just love all the different personalities and to hear what's going on in every one's life and to hear there hearts. Anyways it was great and I think my friend was really blessed.
So, if you read one of my very first posts I love looking forward to stuff. Right now I am looking forward to tomorrow....It is my B-day! I know it sounds funny but I still get excited about my birthday as if I was a little kid. I always make a big deal about it and tell everyone so here I am doing it again. I really was gonna try and not make a big deal about it this year but I am, he he! Tom says he has some stuff planned so I'll let you know what happens. Wow this was long, thanks for listening to my ramblings, bless you all!
~Hilary

Delirious boy!

2008-10-06T20:35:00.002-04:00

This was on the way home from the beach, he skipped his nap and was delirious!

Weepy!

2008-09-30T17:22:00.003-04:00

Just a little weepy today in a good way! I just love Him and just feeling His presence today which I didn't realize how bad I needed it. Lately I haven't been feeling the greatest physically or spiritually. I've been feeling nasueas and tired so any free time I have I want to lay in bed. He has been so kind to me though when I feel like I've barley been paying attention to Him He still draws near. Today I pretty much stayed in my pajamas all day and we are having people over later so finally at 5:00pm decided I better try and look nice and put clothes and make up on. Then I felt like the Lord said "you don't have to get pretty to spend time with me I already call you beautiful". It was this quick thing that just brought me to tears, He calls me beautiful, He calls me lovely, He calls me fair! Now I know most of us hear this a lot in teachings but to really hear it staight from God is amazing! Be encouraged this is what He says about you today, it's the truth, it's in His word! Thank you Lord, we bless your Holy name, Jesus!

Hat Day!

2008-09-25T21:01:00.000-04:00

In need!

2008-09-25T20:27:00.003-04:00

So thinking a lot about the economic crisis going on these days. We are feeling it thats for sure... The Lord has still been providing just in different ways. We realized that instead of praying for money for food we just need to pray in the food and it has worked! Recently someone brought over extra food they had in there cabinets, then another person brought over pasta and sauce, someone brought over stuff to make homemade pizza, then another person brought over chicken and fresh veggies(I made fried green tomatoes for the first time)! It has worked out perfect too cause it will be right when I'm trying to figure out what to make and then the food comes! The one thing I'm asking the Lord about is how He is going to breakthrough this month for rent and bills. As you know rent is due in a week and as we see it in the natural all of the money hasn't come in yet plus electricity and water is due next week. Also we are planning to go to Kansas City for a friends wedding in a couple of weeks and we were going to drive but there is no gas here. My first reaction is YIKES! But then I have to cry out and ask the Lord to break in like He said He would, be the provider that He is and cast out the fear with His perfect love!

So all this to say...Please pray for the Lacy family! I know that everyone is in need right now but if the Lord would have you give to us please do!

Splish Splash

2008-09-22T19:47:00.003-04:00

Beach Pics!

2008-09-20T13:01:00.003-04:00

Here's some pics from our beach trip, it was amazing!
We'll put some videos up too, Samuel had a blast!

Actually we all did! We had lots of time to visit with

my family which is what my heart has been desiring

so my love tank is full now! Ok here's the pics....

This is Trinity and Cousin Mattison

Samuel relaxing at the beach

We rented bikes and the kids were in this kiddie

trailer behind us, it was great to cruise around

the island on bikes, very beautiful! The kids loved

it too!

The last day Samuel got to play in the pool during

nap time, he thought that was great!

Here he is on the way back he fell asleep reading

books.

Guess What!

2008-09-17T13:44:00.001-04:00

Off to the beach!

2008-09-16T09:50:00.003-04:00

We are off to the beach! Leaving in a couple hours so I gotta finish packing but I thought I'd say hi. We get to see my Bro Bro and sis in Law and my sweet niece. It will be great to be with family and have a time of rest. This will be the first time to the beach for the kids so it shall be quite an experience. We are so excited! It is a 4 hour drive so shouldn't be too far. I like road trips especially with my sweet Hubby! So we'll be back in a couple of days and I'll update with pics! Bless you all!
~Hilary

Blessed!

2008-09-11T19:17:00.002-04:00

Today I woke up thinking (not a good thing to do sometimes) and listing off the things we need or don't have. Then I realized we are blessed! So I started looking up scriptures about blessing or when God blessed people. The one that stuck out most to me was Gen 1:22 And God blessed them, saying, "Be fruitful and multiply, and fill the waters in the seas, and let birds multiply on the earth." So then I realized we are blessed, we are fruitful, we are for sure multiplying, ha ha! It just felt so good to hear His truth again. So I started thanking the Lord for my children and thanking Him for that special blessing! Then we went for a walk and I did the usual waving and saying "good morning" to the other walkers and this guy takes a look at the kids and says "wow and some people say there isn't a God". That just spoke to me again that children are a blessing and a gift from the Lord, we are so rich in the Lord because of these little ones! Praise Him! Count your blessing y'all, He is good!
~Hilary

Sunday Pics

2008-09-07T10:45:00.003-04:00

Samuel decided to do some reorganizing, I guess
he thinks the books don't look good on the shelf
but on the floor instead.

I put Trinity down on the blanket in the right
corner of the pic and she rolled all the way to
the stairs. We've got a little mover!

I found Samuel in my "God area", he had my
bible opened to the book of John...I guess that's
what we need to study as a family!

Spirit is longing

2008-09-06T15:49:00.004-04:00

Today there's a deep longing for more of Christ....don't really know what this means but I know my heart is longing for something more in Him, something more with Him, not just a knowledge of who He is but a depth in my heart of knowing who He is. I'm needing more oil, desiring to be ready for His return. Longing to be a friend, a true friend of His, one who knows His heart. I'm just not satisfied with all these earthly comforts, at least my spirit isn't satisfied, my flesh keeps trying to get comfort from these things. Well I could go on and on but there ya go there's my thoughts today!
~Hilary

My 3 Sweeties

2008-09-01T15:18:00.004-04:00

If you haven't realized yet I love pictures!
Here's some more for ya!

She sits on the couch now! So cute with a
double chin!

We've been re-doing our room and I found him
with Daddy's tool-YIKES! I took the picture
then told him it is a no touch.

Funny Hubby! We went on a date to a diner
that was established in 1945- can you tell
by the paint. We had a blast!

I am weak He is strong!

2008-09-01T15:07:00.002-04:00

2Corinthians 12:9 And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." I am so thankful for His truth! Feeling my weakness today but trusting in His grace and His strength. Love you all, be blessed today!
~Hilary

Sunday Pics

2008-08-24T21:50:00.003-04:00

Sweet boy wearing Daddy's shoes and showing
off his belly!

Pretty girl sucking her thumb

Handsome Husband with his new guitar!
(Thanks Daddy!)

I will bless you Lord!

2008-08-23T15:43:00.004-04:00

Today I cried happy tears as I read the word during nap time or as we Mom's like to call "sacred hour". I've read this Psalm before but for some reason today it just got me. Psalm 63:4-5 "Thus I will bless You while I live; I will lift up my hands in Your name. My soul shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness, and my mouth shall praise You with joyful lips." We've been going through some hard stuff lately and I've realized that no matter what I have to bless His name and praise Him. It is the only thing that stops the lies, it is the only thing that keeps my heart alive. It is blessing Him, lifting up my hands in his name, and praising him with joyful lips. I just wept and wept and still am because He is good, He is good, He is good. Even if we didn't make it through this (which I know we will) He is still worthy to be praised! I will bless you Lord! Somebody praise Him!

~Hilary

Kiss from the Lord!

2008-08-19T17:13:00.003-04:00

Today I snuck away for an hour to go to the prayer room alone! So I'm there and I'm in a complaining funk and the person leading the set starts singing about the goodness of the Lord. So I say "Lord I want to know your goodness today" then I hear someone next to me, I look and someone had put a note on my bible, it said "I'm a big fan of you" and it had $10 in it. What a kiss from the Lord! So I've been saying how I feel like all our money goes towards bills, groceries, or kid type stuff and nothing just for me. (Sounds like He's delivering me from selfishness, right?) So He gave me $10 just for me today! Anyways, it might sound small but it was HUGE for me and really touched my heart that He hears me and He wants to show me His goodness. I love the Lord my God!

Hilary

Cute Pics

2008-08-10T07:47:00.006-04:00

Having some Daddy time!

Here's my two sweeties!

Bustin a move again!

2008-08-04T07:48:00.004-04:00

Father's Heart!

2008-08-03T08:03:00.001-04:00

Tom and I have been learning about the Father's heart lately and how every child wants Daddy's attention and longs to hear His voice, it is something God has put in us all. Perfect example my Dad is coming to town on Wednesday for one day but my heart is so excited about that one day, I can't stop thinking about how I get to see him and just talk with him face to face! Another example, the other day Samuel brought me Tom's recorder that he records his dreams on and Samuel figured out how to tun it on. So we hear Tom's voice and Samuel starts saying “da da da da da” in a really excited tone of voice. Then Trinity stops nursing and starts looking around for Dad and smiling while she hears his voice. It is such a picture of how we get excited when we hear His voice or when He is in the room talking with us!

Daddy come to us today, let us hear your voice, we love you~ your children!

Testimony of His Goodness!

2008-08-01T07:13:00.003-04:00

So if you read my post from last night I was pretty sad, tired and discouraged. So I called a friend that is like a spiritual Papa to me and he encouraged me and prayed for me. He said something that shifted my way of thinking and I thought I'd share it with you (hopefully that is ok Father Smith). So He said "God is in a good mood today!" It just makes me laugh saying that but to really believe that God is good, is basically believing that God is in a good mood. So he also told me to thank the Lord for everything I could think of, so I did! And the Lord really showed up, I felt like I got set free and that He gave me new life today. Oh dear friends He is really Good! So The Lord was telling me, "walk in a newness today~ no deception, no lies, no despair, no fear. Only love, only hope, only joy, only peace, only truth". Time to abide again! Lets breathe the good air today... Breathe on us oh breath of God!
Love ya, Hilary

Tired today!

2008-07-31T20:03:00.003-04:00

I'm tired today... Do you ever feel like your constantly battling? Well I do! I've been feeling like so many good things are happening in the Spirit and my heart is really connecting with the Lord lately. Then bamm I feel like I get knocked down or something (not slain in the spirit either) and it is such a battle to get back up and fight. It's like I'll feel refreshed for a couple of days then I'm wiped out for another day. I just have to trust and lean on Him and not on my own understanding. I think I'll just go to bed early and maybe He will give me a dream or something and I'll feel better. Sorry for a downer just had to process this out loud. Ya'll have any encouraging words?
-Hilary

Answered Prayer!

2008-07-28T21:08:00.003-04:00

Today I found myself with a thankful heart! I just relized that I have so much to be thankful for in my life and it is all answered prayer. I had prayed and prayed for a husband that loved the Lord with all his heart and I got him! I prayed that I would be a Mom one day, look at that two children! I prayed we would live in a house, He answered that one! I prayed that some day we would be on days and see the sunlight again, yep He did it! I prayed we would have a new car before baby girl was born, got it! The biggest one is I always dreamed of getting up early and having time with the Lord, just recently He made it happen. He is so good and sees all the desires of my little heart and He answers my cries. Thank you Lord, oh I love you!
-Hilary

sleepy girl

2008-07-26T15:34:00.001-04:00

Sleepy boy

2008-07-26T15:24:00.001-04:00

To be a child again

2008-07-25T07:16:00.003-04:00

Oh to be a child again.... I hear Samuel waking up right now singing La la la da da da. I think about his day and all that we do and start thinking about how it would be if I lived this way with God. To know that someone will scoop me up in the mornings and love on me, to feed me till I'm full, to take me on a walk, let me run around till I'm tired, sleep again, wake up get more hugs and love, snacks and another meal, color, take a bath and more resting. Thinking about this and how it should be with the Lord, as simple as this. He wants us to wake up with Him feel His love and His sweet presence, get full in the spirit with His word, He wants us to go on walks with Him and take in His fresh air, to play with Him until we are tuckered out because He is a joyful God, He wants us to take naps with Him, to continue feeling His love and hugs throughout the day, Have another meal with Him, and then bathe in His love and rest in Him. So I say oh to be a child again but I am a child, child of God! Thank you Lord! It is a new day in Him, be blessed today!
-Hilary

Overwhelmed!

2008-07-21T07:44:00.001-04:00

I am just overwhelmed with His goodness these days! I feel like there is so much to say and not much to say. He's just good and kind towards me. I've been feeling His pleasure more and more and it is sooo good for my heart! I've been meditating on Psalm 45, the whole Psalm is amazing. The first verse says My heart is overflowing with a good theme... this is what I feel everyday lately. My heart is overflowing with His goodness and when something happens in my day like a screaming baby that I can't comfort or a toddler throwing tantrums, instead of getting mad I say “Lord let my heart overflow with a good theme right now”. Speaking the scripture out in my daily life and praying it back to Him has been changing my heart and my whole outlook on life. I've been trying to find a way to encounter him throughout my day for a while now and I finally realized it is so easy to just speak scripture over my daily trials and He will show up. You should try it!
-Hilary

Too far gone!

2008-07-18T07:04:00.001-04:00

This morning I was listening to a friends CD and one of the lyrics just got me and I had it on repeat for a while. I got a fresh touch of His love and it felt so good. The romancing the intimacy I've been longing for showed up today. Just in one little touch and my heart was ravished. So the chorus is “I'm too far gone to go back from where I came and my heart is set on you.” I couldn't imagine living any other way anymore. I was remembering where I came from, not believing but hoping that there was something out there that would satisfy me that would bring me joy. I remember searching and searching for something. I looked for love in relationships, I tried different ways of making money to see if that would satisfy my heart, nothing worked until He came around-Jesus that is! I'm so thankful that He saved my soul! I've fallen head over heals for Him, He's are all I've ever dreamed of. To love so deeply to feel so deeply. Even in the hard times it is worth it, when I can't feel Him, when the money doesn't come in, when people say stuff about what I'm doing and it all doesn't make any sense. It is still worth the one touch, the one encounter, the one word He whispers that encourages my heart.... oh how I love Him. I'm gonna press on and set my heart on Him. This song also says “I'm holding on to your promises leaning into your word” and I'm realizing it is just that easy! His promises are in His word and all we have do is lean on His word and He's gonna do the rest. Be blessed today y'all!
-Hilary

Hilary Here!

2008-07-14T15:14:00.003-04:00

Hello ya'll, so I am blogging for the first time without my editor (Mr. Lacy). So we will see how this goes...
I've been wanting to write for a while because I've been so excited about how God has been showing up in my life lately! Tom is on mornings now so I've been getting up early at 6 when he leaves and let me tell you it has been so great! I wanted to challenge myself to get up and pray in the spirit for an hour. So I've been doing this for almost 2 weeks now. This has changed my whole outlook on life and my days seem to be so much better. It is so good to commune with the Lord first thing in the morning, He helps me wake up. Also I've been able to get in the prayer room more, Tom has been staying home during nap time so I can have sweet time with the Lord. In case you didn't know I have an amazing husband, yep it is true! So with this new schedule as a family and scheduled time with the Lord my heart is alive again, somebody praise Him! I have a new hunger and desire for the Lord and it feels so good! Love ya'll gotta run babies calling my name.

Hilary

"This Girl Can Bust A Move!"

2008-07-05T21:49:00.002-04:00

Try this sometime!

2008-06-19T15:41:00.003-04:00

"This Boy Can BustaMove"

2008-06-01T00:18:00.002-04:00

Update from Hilary!

2008-05-28T21:02:00.003-04:00

Well howdy ya'll!

Last time I “blogged it up” was before Trinity was born! She just turned 2 months or 8 weeks(baby time) yesterday, Can You Believe It?! I've been learning more about motherhood these days. Trinity has been crying a lot lately, some would say she's colicky, (some would cancel that and plead the Blood) and Samuel has been throwing some fits lately. So basically my day consists of holding Trinity until she stops crying and trying to teach Samuel to not throw fits or how to control his emotions. We say “Samuel you have self control, you can control your emotions”. Through all this God is teaching me about self control! Yep I'm learning right along with the children, isn't God funny. So when Trinity cries, I get to deal with anxiety, anger, sadness, frustration or all of the above and the Lord say's, “Hilary you have self control, you can take authority over your emotions.” Wowsers! I have to actually learn the same stuff and obey just like I'm expecting of Samuel. I'm definitely learning to abide again. I keep thinking, “oh yeah I know John 15, abide in the Vine everything will be fine!” I don't know that verse! Plus I feel like I don't have time to get in the Word or to even talk with the Lord, but He is so faithful to show me things through my kids and put scripture into action in my life. Yep He is a good leader! AMEN!

So other updates: Samuel got a new haircut,

Trinity is smiling and sticking our her tongue,

Samuel likes to wear Daddy's shoes and

Trinity is sooo beautiful.

Thomas is an amazing husband and is becoming one of those awesome Dad's you hear stories about.

“Nuthin' but love”, Hil

1-2-3

2008-05-27T19:44:00.004-04:00

It's Just That Hard!